[eskielover]

I got a call from the detective the other day....he went to the house that everything pointed to & nothing. She didn't even know that anyone had paid her water bill & he said she didn't have a working computer in the house (which he said looked very much like a crack house). Nothing that looked like anything I said was in the bag they stole out of the truck. He said the only next hope was that the 2 past due phone bills that were charged might point to the person somehow. The phone # on the shoe order pointed to the house also....must be another lady that lives there also. Oh yes, the lady's boyfriend had just gotten out of jail the day before this all happened.

I got a letter from Accore saying how sorry they were about the incident, but they aren't responsible for anything stolen or broken into in their parking lots & that is all they are doing with this because it's between me, & the police to point it to the clerk that I know had to have stolen the information when I checked in......gee, sorry about that, but hope you will consider us in your future travels. I WILL NEVER AGAIN STAY IN A MOTEL 6!!!!!!!!!!!

I did get a viper alarm system put onto my truck so that is much safer. It isn't quite working right, but am going to have the auto starter & another sensor placed into the bed of the truck. In the future, they will be able to run it into my horse trailer, so that will be an awsome system.

On the home front, I have given up, but then again, I don't know why I still keep hoping he will come around. He makes me so angry that he keeps holding onto his sarcastic, negative, argumentative, personality. He pushed me so far that I refused to let him come to KY with me for Christmas.......but I'm just messing myself up because I can't seem to get myself into a mental place to be able to make that trip alone. As a matter of fact, I just feel like crawling under my covers & never coming out. I just can't seem to function & have to figure out all the stupid part D prescription plan & whether I would be better off with any other coverage rather than the basic medicare coverage. I just can't focus my mind on anything right now to make any decisions.....& that isn't a good place to be in when I don't have the time to allow myself to be this way.

I told him the only way I will ever let him into my life again is if he comes to the realization of what he has done & that he is sorry for that & willing to let that go & just start his future without spending all this time looking at the past. He has to let it go & focus on a good future....but he's so negative & won't let go of it.....I just can't stand having a person like that around me.......thus also messing up my going back to KY right now for Christmas.

I finally have a good pain specialist there that I have a scheduled appointment with on January 10.....so it makes sense to just drive back there for Christmas....right now......but my insides don't feel like I can really make the trip with the high anxiety state I'm in right now.

So much for the quick update....but this pretty much summarizes where I'm at right now....& it's not a good picture.

Debbie

[splitimage]

Sorry you're running into road blocks on the theft investigation.

This is just me - sometimes when my motivation is low, I know I just have to force myself to push through when I know that there's something good on the other side. So I say get in the truck and start driving.

--splitimage

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{Debbie}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm with Splitimage. Get in that truck and just drive! Stay in the NOW. Think of how happy you were in Ky and don't let all the negativity get to you any more than it already has. Leave it behind! He won't ever change and we both know it, Sweety.

I'd say do a trial run and come visit me but with all this rain, I wouldn't want you to be on the road.

You're in my prayers!



Do it, Debbie! You know you can! You've done it before!

[Perna]

You don't have anyone there or in Ky. who can meet up with you and help you with the trip, no good friends or family member, niece/nephew, something like that? I wish I weren't so far East.

Hi Debbie.... thanks for the update. Sorry it isn't better news to report on your stuff. Still believing for your flute to find its way home to you.

I guess we can all relate to feelings of overload and emotional exhaustion. Do let yourself rest in between the business. Even if just for a few minutes at a time.

I wish there was some one who could travel to KY with you. If not maybe just think about the trip in short trip increments. Image getting to the next town. Don't think past the next town until you get there. Just one short step at a time. One step at a time and you will soon enough be home again in KY.

The next step is always clear in time to take it. One step at a time.

Blessings.....