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Default Aug 25, 2021 at 09:50 PM
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Before, you ask, yes I am okay. I am merely asking, have you ever felt like you never fit in with society, like you felt like an alien, felt like you are going against the grain. I feel this exact way, I feel as if I would do better in a post apocalyptic situation, I wouldn’t have to worry about a job, bills, the stress that daily life brings. I understand I my life would be in constant danger if it were a post apocalyptic setting, however I feel as if it would fit. I’ve always been a quiet, reserved and reclusive person with not many friends, so I feel like I would fit in..I don’t know I just feel like I was built for a much different world than the one we live in currently. I don’t know if this alienation like feeling has to do with me being autistic (undiagnosed) but thanks for listening and letting me rant.

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Default Aug 26, 2021 at 12:55 AM
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Funnily enough, I used to fantasise about being in the zombie apocalypse for similar reasons. I’d even decided where I’d make my base, the kind of car I’d take on supermarket raids etc. Then I’d just feel annoyed because it was never going to happen lol.
Life is tough but it does often feel like other people make it unnecessarily harder, sometimes for no other reason than “they can”
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Funnily enough, I used to fantasise about being in the zombie apocalypse for similar reasons. I’d even decided where I’d make my base, the kind of car I’d take on supermarket raids etc. Then I’d just feel annoyed because it was never going to happen lol.
Life is tough but it does often feel like other people make it unnecessarily harder, sometimes for no other reason than “they can”
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Not the only one. I just feel like I was made for a world like that, I’m really introverted and I just feel like I can’t function as well in this sort of world. Hell, during the coronavirus lockdowns while everyone was freaking out about quarantines, it was the most fun I had, I was able to read books I never got around to reading, draw, do whatever I liked. I never felt lonely or bored once.

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Default Aug 26, 2021 at 12:39 PM
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I used to feel like an alien until I discovered support groups for people with mental illness. Then I realized I have a lot more in common with some other people than I thought. I don't feel so lonely anymore.
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Default Sep 04, 2021 at 12:07 PM
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I don't feel I was made for it either. I don't see much hope of myself ever 'making' it if you know what I mean. I'm not an exactly 'okay' enough person emotionally for it to happen, and I feel like I don't really belong. I feel left out of the happy events of this life where some are so lucky to be part of them all.
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I feel this all the time I'd be willing to try apocalyptic living because I wouldn't consider myself to be living a life worth living and like you, I'm not going to end it but I'm not exactly okay either. I don't fit in anywhere and it becomes more difficult the older I get. I've had one long-term job other than that I last for as long as I can handle human interactions which don't seem to get past 3 months.

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I feel like I don't fit in. I took a Myers-Briggs personality test and came out as an INFJ, which turns out to be the rarest personality type. I feel like I can nice in nature as a person and maybe other people like me. But it seems like they don't want to include me in on anything. That's what I've discovered the most.

Also I tend to have a critical outlook on the world, for the future of my life, and other people. I know I should change, but it's hard to. I tried but then I felt like I was kidding myself. I guess I feel comfortable in that skin. For the most part, I'm not crazy about it, but there are times when I feel content with being the way I am.
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Default Sep 06, 2021 at 12:28 AM
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Yes can relate totally. In the past and now even when have friends and get out and do things, I often don’t feel like I fit in. It does help to get out and do things, but it’s not easy or totally me. Introverts of the world unite
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Default Sep 07, 2021 at 07:48 PM
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I never fit in. Status quo is not my normal. I just want to live be at peace and be happy. I work towards goals cause it gives me something to do. Otherwise life is blah. I give it energy, excitement. When I find a goal doesn't suit my current circumstance I try a different goal. I put one goal on the back burner, where it seems to be permanently situated.

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It has always seemed to me that I must be in the wrong place, if not on the wrong planet. My foo is the most disfunctional group of people I've ever seen. I don't have anything to do with them.
No matter where I go, I have that feeling of wrongness. Frankly, I'm still trying to figure out why I was even born. What was the point to it?

I would like to be one of those love bugs in Florida. They hatch, mate, and die.
At least they have a purpose - making a colossal mess all over everyone's windshield.

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I feel as if I would do better in a post apocalyptic situation, I wouldn’t have to worry about a job, bills, the stress that daily life brings. I understand I my life would be in constant danger if it were a post apocalyptic setting, however I feel as if it would fit. I’ve always been a quiet, reserved and reclusive person with not many friends, so I feel like I would fit in..I don’t know I just feel like I was built for a much different world than the one we live in currently. I don’t know if this alienation like feeling has to do with me being autistic (undiagnosed) but thanks for listening and letting me rant.
I keep telling this to my therapist. Felt like this for years and I was sooo excited about the pandemic. That panned out to be not apocalyptic.

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Default Sep 19, 2021 at 01:22 AM
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Yes I feel like this more and more every day . I feel I don't fit in anywhere . I used to fit in at a program I go to . I told my counselor who works there . years ago they had program 4 days a week from 9am -3pm ...groups all day ,sometimes we went on outings ( whoever wanted to go ) ,I even volunteered running an art group and leading exercise every morning .
I was doing do good for years ,even started volunteering at a local skilled nursing facility . 3 days a week 10 hours a day . sadly I had a relapse in symptoms after 4 years as I got close to the residents and after losing them all the time I couodnt handle the loss . I started seeing them in the hallways . I'd wake up crying cause I'd dream about them .
I ended up in hospital again and couldn't bring myself to volunteer there anymore ,so went back to program .
About a year later they transferred my counselor (who was also program manager ) to another location and soon program went downhill .
They got down to 2 days a week ,3 hours a day with only 2 groups and bingo on Mondays and no groups on Thursday ,just a short trip for only few people .
I started going downhill fast . then the pandemic hit and I just stay home ,doing phone sessions with counselor and psychiatrist.
I had already suffered from agoraphobia before program but thought I beat it .
Now I feel I don't belong in this world ,I wasnt made for this world ,I don't fit in anywhere anymore .
I stay home everyday except to get groceries once or twice a month and get my meds filled once a month and cone right home . I even quit smoking so I can limit my time I go out . my agoraphobia won over nicotine addiction .
I know I wrote alot I needed to share this . I'm not in crisis or I'd call crisis line and go to hospital . I just miss program so much sometimes I cry .
Thanks for letting me share this .
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Default Sep 19, 2021 at 09:08 PM
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So Sorry things are being so hard for everyone! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i think i can at least partly relate to what you guys are saying personally. i also feel rather disconnected at times. i'd definitely not want to try an apocalyptic scenario and i wouldn't wish it on anyone else frankly. Still i think i can understand the sentiment overall. m. i want to say to do try your best and that hopefully you will meet some people to whom you can actually relate to at least. Although some may disagree i think it may be useful to love ourselves also. i hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Love. Stay Safe. m. Do try your Best. Kindness matters a lot at least i believe. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @The Madcap, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!
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