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Trig Jul 28, 2022 at 06:05 PM
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I know it's wrong to feel this way but damnit how much is one person supposed to endure?

My dad moved out but had a package sent to my house. Was it an accident or was he trying to manipulate me into bringing it to him?

I don't know but it really triggered me and then this morning I did a ketamine infusion and freaked out. The nurse called it a k-hole.

I am 60. My monstrous parents are 80 and 85. I just want them dead.

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I've wished people did. I haven't thought of being violent myself, but have wished them dead. My brother in particular.
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I've wished people dead, had a plan but no gun in possession so it didn't happen. And I'm glad I didn't but they moved on and are living happily which bites me in butt sometimes.

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At one point I threatened to kill my mother.
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I told my t that when i first asked for his "help", this is what i meant.
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I wouldn't act on it but I imagine my dad dropping dead.

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I wanted to kill my previous psychiatrist. I wouldn't actually have done it because I didn't want to go to prison, but. She was a vile, malicious human being who should not be working with people.

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Default Jul 30, 2022 at 05:16 PM
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I'm a bit confused by this thread tbh: does it mean "want to and might act on it" or is it a figure of speech, like saying "raining cats and dogs"?
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To me saying you might act on it means you would literally kill someone. Wanting someone dead without planning violence is different.
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I don't see that the thought is unusual, if someone really did a job on you.

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I made a bad joke in therapy in December 2018 about the ******* therapist I saw before that therapist and I almost got the cops called on me. I just meant it as a joke though I wasn't serious. I just wrote a review instead really bad mouthing her and calling her out and saying how many mental health proffesionals were disapointed in her severe unproffesionlism and that helped take the anger away.

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Yes, I've written bad reviews of doctors. I find that helps and warns other potential patients too.
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Never wanted anyone dead but I was shocked at the peace I finally felt after my mom died. My dad had died 15 years before she did.

Would I feel more peace if my ex-H died? Probably not at this point as he has done all the damage he could do to me & I am paying lawyers trying to fix the damage. He is living the consequences of his choices since he no longer owns anything except debt....think he is getting what he deserves more while being alive

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I'm a bit confused by this thread tbh: does it mean "want to and might act on it" or is it a figure of speech, like saying "raining cats and dogs"?
Want to actually act on it but won't because it makes you a worse person than the one who hurt you.

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Want to actually act on it but won't because it makes you a worse person than the one who hurt you.
plus i dont think you want to go to jail ..........
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plus i dont think you want to go to jail ..........
There's that, too.

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plus i dont think you want to go to jail ..........
I would think first deterant would be self-control, being in control of acting on emotions or urges.

Not wanting to go to jail is kind of a back up threat for those who may not have the self-control NOT TO ACT on their emotions or urges.

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Yeah, it's not really the fear of jail for me. I don't want to hurt anyone, plus it wouldn't make me feel better if I did. Would be a lifelong sentence of guilt. No thanks!
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I have a friend who was abused as I was and she gets very upset when I wish my abuser death.

I wish it only I couldn't do it.

Since he is substantially older I know I will win this battle. He will die, I will get to establish his reputation, and hopefully dance on his grave.
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absolutely.

I have quite the list of people actually
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