Rejection

It this time and i know that it`s sort of MY problem...in a way.

I feel rejected when basically i may not be,
Like when i come to eat my breakfast adn my roomate is sitting near the table eating hers and when i start makign tea i just came she takes whatever and leaves.

Maybe it`s not what she means. Or sometimes i speak and she doesn`t say anything in return althoguht here again. Many times i tlak really quietly so maybe it`s impossible to hear.

I don`t know

I guess it`s an early thgouth which turned into an illusive feeling that people don`t want my company. That in fact i am rediculous, throw unwanted...yeha especially rediculous. It`s no fun thinkking that about myself,.

But I don`t really believe it to be completely true.
I know it`s when i came to this county i was a new immigrant and not all kinds wanted to play with me. I came to israel when i was 6 years old. Now i am 23. and i guess it turns our to be suboncious....but only when i don`t consider THIS feeling or whatever rediculous. Like in my head i know that reasonably ui have no reason to be sure. and to believe in that and to pay it much attention.

But I see there is something beyond that ...and this is what i am here for...i hope i won`t take things like that for all my life...

It sounds like you may be a sensitive soul, as I am....and that's hard......you could try talking to your roommate about things.....being an immigrant must be hard....share more? love junerain

thank you , Junerian
Yeah i am a very sensitive soul, way too much. And i am trying to overcome it`s disadventages because i know that nothing shows what i imaginae and then feel and that there are lot`s of people in life who may say this adn sya that,..

I don`t want to take everything to heart. I mean i do it just goes there without me tyring to control it...but i guess if i am aware and i am convicing myself otherwise it will be better.

I don`t always like it being that %#@&#! sesitive
sometimes i wish i were not

(((LadyM)))))

there are, as im sure you know, certain advantages to being sensitive, tho i know right now you are talking about the disadvantages, and you are describing it accurately...

please dont feel less because of how others react to you... maybe (i know its not fun) you could see yourself as a person with special needs (we all are in ways) and pay attention to those needs..

wherever you go you might find people less sensitive than you, but that shouldnt make you feel like you are a wrong or bad person..

its taken me several years but i have learned to accept and even love my ability to be sensitive... we all have a place and purpose, you have the artwork and many other valuable gifts to bring us... do not let it make you feel badly when others behave as they do... likely you cannot get them to adjust to you, few are capable of that type of sensitivity unless they are born with it or learn it thru their own tragedies...

remember you are valuable as a person and strive forward to bring the world your unique gifts..

(((((((((((LadyM))))))))))))))))))


I also tend to be very sensitive so I totally understand what you are saying.

Thank you very much nowhereturn and gimmiece


I agree and i don`t feel less. Basically i think that those who are not sensitive at all are living in denyal. But i say that those disadvantages...i don`t want to FEEL bothered about what people do or sya because i have SUCH MUCH MORE ineresting things to do and to think about

Now this same roommate AGAIN is talking like last year

"Are you moving out this year? no? why! ANOTHER year! how much!

And we are 3 and i am in 1 room and they are in 1 and i ma paying haough of the fee for the apartment.
i am %#@&#! sick of her ********/ Little fat %#@&#! *****

I just don`t want this to spoil my mood
The fact that she wants more room for her boyfriends mean SHE needs t omove out not me

She says
" I know you don`t HVAE to but comon b ncie to me
damn it! nice to HER! i understand you can ASK but almost DEMAND that i move out...heck....little fat stupid *****...........

((((((((((FuzzyBear))))))))))))

Thanks