[deepthinker]

Well its definately been a while since i have posted here and a lot has changed. I have been in a relationship with a 30yr old man called James. In a nutshell, james has lead a 'different' life. He was married for 8 years, cheated on his wife several times. We moved in together at the start of this year and things have been a roller-coaster ever since.

He is in desperate need of therapy. We split up two days ago because i yet again found out he was saying things behind my back that i wouldn't even think a human being was capable of. He told another girl (who he once had an affair with) that he still wanted her body. *sigh*
I can accept this because i know he's not well.
He may have symptoms of Bi-Polar as he's always up and down.

The thing is... he knows what he does is WRONG. but he will continue to do it. No matter how much it hurt me or it hurt him. He knows he's screwed up but can't find the reasons as to why. He says he loves me, and to some extent i believe him. But he's hurt me so many times. I will see him tonight and we will sit down. I told him i wont walk out on him if he gets therapy.

I guess for the reason of me posting here would be to ask if anyone has had similiar symptoms or known someone that is like james?
He rather depress all his feelings and continue to do the wrong things, knowing that they are wrong.
He will listen to his ex wife knowing that she is feeding him guilty feelings but he continues to listen.
He says he will 'change' but can never gather the strength or perhaps the motivation to do so.

I'm just at a loss for words and feelings right now. This is all in a nut shell. I just need to be pointed in some direction at least.

-Deepthinker-