[ladyrevan21]

Hi. Mostly recounting my neurofeedback session yesterday. Sorry I didn't record it yesterday; best I can say is I was kind of worn out. Later ended up falling asleep. So we finally did the brain map, and there were different colors involved for different levels of intensity -- my doctor, however, was actually kind of disbelieving that I had a lot of white space there (basically, it's a sign that certain brainwaves are really high), mostly in stuff like the theta part. And having a lot of orange (pretty high) in the alpha parts. Mostly he summed it up as me going into reverie pretty regularly. And honestly? I think it sounds about right. I've always been kind of spacing out as a kid and as an adult, and ever since memory recovery it's gotten worse at times. Even when I recovered my first memory it was kind of like I forgot just about everything else. I'm getting the rest back, which is a relief. Looking back, I'm wondering how much might have been a form of suggestion, so to speak, from media -- my already overly anxious brain glomming onto other stuff it could find (my brain already has a talent for that). So I guess I am pulling the layers back.