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Hi friends,
So today is the day five months ago that I was hospitalized in a mental hospital. Well I spent a day and a half in the ER and then was transferred to a mental hospital. This is the anniversary of that. I still have traumatic memories of being in the hospital....five months down the road. This happens every 25th of the month but also on other days too. Certain things remind me of the hospital and then the memories come. Does it get better like a year or two out? Maybe it's just not been long enough that I've been dealing with this? It feels like every 25th will be hard for me. I tried talking to my parents but they don't get it. I'm going to try talking to my therapist again but so far she hasn't gotten it. Yeah, some good has come out of being hospitalized but it doesn't take away the bad. It doesn't overcome the hellishness of the hospital. Does it ever get better? __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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I got out in 2016 after 5 years, as I have said. The pain has eased somewhat, but it is still there. That loss cannot be undone. Can't unring that bell. Again, I think for me it has been about trying to find meaning and something positive in it all. And I havea tried to do that. I try to support others when I can. I wrote a book about my experience. Maybe that will help someone or something. Have you tried jornaling or writing about it? Blogging? Writing a book? Something like that?
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Yes--after a number of years. Try not to pay attention to dates. That will help.
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Yes, I've even written a series of essays in which I talk about my various hospital experiences.
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Thanks friends. For now I feel better. I know next 25th I will probably have these same difficult feelings. I know some good has come out of the hospitalization, so I am trying to focus on that. But it is almost like trauma memories from the hospitalization come up. I'm not sure they are trauma memories but it feels like they are. Thanks for all the advice and everything.
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I've come to celebrate one of my early hospitalizations as a victory, with a cupcake and everything. My family sings happy birthday for this one because it actually saved my life... by preventing me from taking it. I know this is contrary to the advice others have given. But the love that they give me really cements how I need to stay here and beat this garbage. I even have an app on my phone that counts up from my previous hospitalization to remind me of how long I've been able to hold it back. It may be different for you. But why not try to draw power from it?
I know that on the September 23, I'll be celebrating my next Life Day. I'll think of you on the 25th, @SlumberKitty. |
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Im wondering the same thing,maybe you should talk to your psychologist a lot about how your feeling its very important to let him/her know that you want to live on your own and to make it happen,most liking they will say stuff like "You have to do is independent living like,cook for yourself,going on the bus,cleaning and making your own bed..stuff like that" for me Id say I probably go back to bulimia if I was to live by myself and my doctor told me its important to not get sucked in to bulimia .And with the company its nice to talk to people when I get stressed out over something small.It would be nice to live by myself but I donno what to do about it right this minute
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