Thinking about joining an intensive outpatient program

I still have unresolved mental health issues (schizophrenia), and am thinking about joining a behavioral health intensive outpatient program; it's affiliated with a nearby hospital.

I believe I am still not better, as I still suffer from delusions. Maybe joining a group outpatient program is necessary, as I have never completed a behavioral health intensive outpatient program since contracting schizophrenia/psychosis. In my opinion, I was in denial. I knew I was ill but did not want to be ill. So I didn't fully accept my illness. Maybe I can get that resolved by joining outpatient.

I assume there will be a team of professionals closely monitoring me. The funny thing is, this would not be my first time at that outpatient program. I was committed to that program three times, and not once did I finish it. Maybe I thought I was not really psychotic. I remember thinking I had Autism at the time, and that it was a big misunderstanding/misdiagnosis. I thought I was in quite a predicament. But now I have realized that, no, I don't have Autism. I have social anxiety and social awkwardness, but that doesn't automatically mean I have Autism.

@185329 glad you are working on joining a program to help yourself. It is not easy sticking to a program. Do you also have a therapist that can help you stay on track?

You might bring up to the staff that you have problems with mental health issues getting in the way of completing the Outpatient program and ask them to help you if you start to back out?

Another way is to have a buddy in the program that you keep each other on the path. That may be difficult if you suffer from social anxiety.

Do you stay on your meds regularly? Many people are helped by that.
@CANDC

Yeah, I was seeing therapists on and off over the years. None of them seemed to help. I don't think asking the staff to help me will help. It would probably just stress me out even more.

I stay on my meds regularly; have been fully compliant for over six years. Before I finally became fully compliant, I was actually taking meds regularly, but I was still in denial and/or suffering from anosognosia. So I was constantly looking for ways to reduce my meds or stop taking them, as I thought I wasn't ill; even though I was taking them everyday as prescribed.

I appreciate your kind reply. I know you were trying to be helpful, I just feel pretty hopeless right now.