[spondiferous]

Hey gang. So I went to see my new psychiatrist yesterday. She specializes in eating disorders but she also treats mental health in general. And she agreed to take me on as a patient, not just for my eating disorder but for everything (yay!). The thing is, after going the list of my diagnoses and some of the more pressing symptoms, she said to me, "I'm gonna scrap the whole list of other stuff and say it's PTSD and ED."

Woah.

So, I know it doesn't change who I am, or what my experience is. I know that it doesn't change the symptoms I've had. But I really struggled last night. I wanted to binge so bad. I just wanted to eat everything in the bloody house. I felt so overwhelmed, let down, and ashamed. I'm not really sure where it stems from. I guess ultimately it's not really important.

I feel a bit better about it today. PC helps a lot, with the various forums; I can check in with the PTSD department and get to know some folks there and share my fears and experiences. I have been doing research all day too, to get some more information around it. I've had only minor knowledge of what it entails up til now. After having done some research on it I can say that it definitely explains a lot of my symptoms without having to give me five different labels. I still think I might heavily have other traits (OCD, mainly) but we're going to talk about that at our next session on Tuesday.

Just had to get that out. Been feeling sick today and didn't get the chance to go out and do all the stuff I had to do today. Even missed my ED therapy group. My case manager called during the break and now I have to call her back and explain why I wasn't there. Such is life, I s'pose. One day at a time...

[Travelinglady]

Yes, one day at a time....I guess the diagnosis change was a shock. I think it is a good idea to check out folks with your new diagnoses.

Meanwhile, hang in here and avoid the food binges!