[widowlost]

I live five feet from a convienience store. This has been a big problem. I don't buy junk when i go to the grocery anymore, but it hasn't helped. I am obsessed with getting stuff from the conveinience store. I will get stuff from there untill every dime i have is gone. Then i have to starve for a week with no food. Then i have money again and eat everything in sight. My weight goes up and down. I feel like crap and I'm beyond stressed..

[online user]

Can you put some money in an envelope and put: Reserves for next week. To avoid starvation then. on the envelope? See if that will deter you from spending it all. Then put it in an inconvenient place to deter you as well. then write in here if you are tempted to violate your plan. We'll try to convince you to wait.

[MoxieDoxie]

I hope you are seeing a Therapist. You would want tomspend your money on that instead.

[sunsetsunrise]

hi. Wow that sure is a problem. I can understand why you are having so much trouble with it. Good for you to posting here about whats going on !!!

Here is what I would have to do. I would have to give some of the money to someone to hold for me until the next week. A person who does not live too close to me. So I could not just go and easily get it. I would have to make an agreement with the person that they could be depended on to hold the money for me.

Then I would have to take the money budgeted for the week and go to the grocery store asap. Spend it on healthy foods. So there is not the money to spend it at the convenience store close to me. Essentially, I would have to outsmart that part of myself that wants the unhealthy stuff. That way i would be eating healthfully. AND I would not be starving my body the following week. Do you think that stratagy sounds like it would work?

I do agree with Moxy. But therapy takes time. So while I think its a great idea, I think a workable plan in the meantime is important.

[widowlost]

I am working on getting back into therapy
Luckily this month I got to go to the store and buy a months worth of groceries
Your ideas are all really good ones but my food money is on ebt. I live with my daughter and she actually. goes to the store for me as i can't walk down there. I need to just stop sending her and need to refuse anyrhing when she goes for herself. Its just super hard. I have no life and so i let it fill a void.

[sunsetsunrise]

that is VERY hard. I am really sorry that you have to do it all on sheer dicipline. Glad you are working on getting back into therapy though.

I really hope it can work out for you with your daughter not getting the foods that you both would love to have. But maybe it can be a good teachable time for her. Creating lots of awareness. Glad you are posting about it here. Thats great.

I do have one other thought. Maybe you can make a rule that you can only spend 1/4 of the monthly ebt card/money each week. And make sure to spend most of it at the grocery store on healthy foods. Would it work? Its really hard to know what works for anyone. Like so many things do not work for me. But other things do. Signing a contract might work well for me. But that may not be needed for others. or maybe it wouldnt even work for others.

[widowlost]

I talked to my daughter last night while we where playing cards. I told her my choices where mine but that i was having a really hard time and i was going to try not to ask her to go down there and i needed her to not ask to go a bunch either. We agreed we will only go on fridays for an end of the week treat. Here's hoping we stick to it.

[sunsetsunrise]

sounds good. I know totally what you mean when you say "here's hoping we stick to it". food has been my worst addiction. The only thing that saved me is very poor health. I cannot eat most things. So it took my choices away. Ir I was left to my own devices and could eat any food, I dont know what would be happening with me.

I think its doing such a great thing for her. To help her to only do this on the weekend as a treat. Maybe that can be the incentive that can help keep things on track. Although I do know how hard that is, believe me !!! powerful stuff, eating disorders. So powerful !!!! I know all too well.

[spondiferous]

Good luck widow, let us know how that plan works. I think it's great that you talked to your daughter and were honest with her about what a struggle it is for you. At the last place I lived there were four fast food restaurants and a 7-Eleven within a 4-block radius. It was awful. I would go out and eat crap all the time until my money was gone, and then try to manipulate my partner into spending her money on crap for me or for us. It's a deadly cycle. I hope you find freedom from it. It's so hard when there's a void and that's how I'm used to filling it.