why should i?

i mean i'm going to die anyway.. what's the god dam point in looking after your body and keeping it at a good weight- eventually it all means nothing

i'm ranting. people say oh.. look after your body and you're gonna live longer- I don't want to live longer, I don't want to be here in this world, so why should i make an effert.

someone come up with something here, because I honestly don't know

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

why should i?

i mean i'm going to die anyway.. what's the god dam point in looking after your body and keeping it at a good weight- eventually it all means nothing

i'm ranting. people say oh.. look after your body and you're gonna live longer- I don't want to live longer, I don't want to be here in this world, so why should i make an effert.

someone come up with something here, because I honestly don't know

Maybe deciding to taking control of the situation and making gradual changes in your diet and exercise to achieve even modest results would reduce your frustration. I can't speak from a position of success in this area, as I have been overweight for years due to meds and the sedentary lifestyle brought on by depression and isolation, but I recently had a hypomanic run during which I did a lot of physical work and ate much less than usual, and I lost weight. Now that I'm slipping back into depression, I expect the weight will come on again, but it was fun while it lasted. I was once in really good shape, an all-state 3200m runner in high school, and I once looked down on the overweight, but I started getting heavier in my late twenties on lithium and am now enjoying my karmic just desserts, pun fully intended. Maybe you're right; maybe it just doesn't matter, especially if you don't care about your physical appearance or longevity. The prophet said that all is vanity. I, like you, no longer care about turning heads or living longer, and getting fat on psychotropics is part of the miracle of modern-day mental illness, so let's all just pretend this post didn't happen; I was just trying to be supportive.

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Maybe deciding to taking control of the situation and making gradual changes in your diet and exercise to achieve even modest results would reduce your frustration. I can't speak from a position of success in this area, as I have been overweight for years due to meds and the sedentary lifestyle brought on by depression and isolation, but I recently had a hypomanic run during which I did a lot of physical work and ate much less than usual, and I lost weight. Now that I'm slipping back into depression, I expect the weight will come on again, but it was fun while it lasted. I was once in really good shape, an all-state 3200m runner in high school, and I once looked down on the overweight, but I started getting heavier in my late twenties on lithium and am now enjoying my karmic just desserts, pun fully intended. Maybe you're right; maybe it just doesn't matter, especially if you don't care about your physical appearance or longevity. The prophet said that all is vanity. I, like you, no longer care about turning heads or living longer, and getting fat on psychotropics is part of the miracle of modern-day mental illness, so let's all just pretend this post didn't happen; I was just trying to be supportive.

*changes name to shrek*

really that is how i feel. maybe even ugglier than shrek, I don't know

thanks for your reply

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

*changes name to shrek*

really that is how i feel. maybe even ugglier than shrek, I don't know

thanks for your reply

You're welcome. Maybe the aesthetic/vanity disappointment is just a hard life lesson to look beyond a person's physical appearance, or reject conventional ideals of health and beauty, or recognize our society's cruelty to the overweight. I haven't seen any of the Shrek movies, but wasn't he the hero?

Food costs so much and will only get more expensive as the value of our currencies depreciate. Someday soon perhaps neither of us will be able to afford the luxury of overeating.

[TishaBuv]

Over eating just compounds all your problems. You even call it 'over eating', so you know you are eating more than you should. Eat what you want, just eat a little less, and cut down on the junk food gradually.

If I'm about to binge eat, I think about how I am going to hate myself for doing it, and I am usually able to stop myself or just eat a reasonable amount of food.

It's exactly the way you are thinking that keeps people battling with weight and feeling bad about themselves.

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

You're welcome. Maybe the aesthetic/vanity disappointment is just a hard life lesson to look beyond a person's physical appearance, or reject conventional ideals of health and beauty, or recognize our society's cruelty to the overweight. I haven't seen any of the Shrek movies, but wasn't he the hero?

Food costs so much and will only get more expensive as the value of our currencies depreciate. Someday soon perhaps neither of us will be able to afford the luxury of overeating.

that's a scary thought

but yes. I suppose 1 day that just might be the case

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

why should i?

i mean i'm going to die anyway.. what's the god dam point in looking after your body and keeping it at a good weight- eventually it all means nothing

i'm ranting. people say oh.. look after your body and you're gonna live longer- I don't want to live longer, I don't want to be here in this world, so why should i make an effert.

someone come up with something here, because I honestly don't know

Why don't you get yourself some good counseling for ED and do something about the BED. I don't know what your purpose is for making this post or many of your posts except to show that you have BED. It's up to you if you want to do something about it or not. Do you want to be this way forever?

[LucyD]

I'm sorry about my last post. I don't know if you try or not really. I am basically frustrated with the ed stuff.

Originally Posted by LucyD

I'm sorry about my last post. I don't know if you try or not really. I am basically frustrated with the ed stuff.

don't appologize. it's fine

I think when it comes to the bottom line, everyone tries their hardest with the issues they have- sometimes it works out for them, sometimes not. sometimes it can take years to find something that works, sometimes it just does not take that long

I think also if you are annoyed with the ED stuff (you've mentioned before you are,) perhaps you should take a break from reading these posts and consontrate on your own recovery.

[LucyD]

It has taken me many years to get to where I am at now. These EDs are so hard to deal with aren't they? I had bulimia for 30 years, too. It is just one day at a time for me, though, as I have some days that are real hard and some that are not as hard. I'm scared of myself, too. Scared I'm going to go wild and eat everything in sight one of these days and I probably will, too. That's the nature of this beast. I am starting counseling on this coming Friday. I hope it will help me to deal with the B.E.D., too.

It is totally up to you SS what you want to do as you know. Are you happy? What do you want for yourself?

Originally Posted by LucyD

It has taken me many years to get to where I am at now. These EDs are so hard to deal with aren't they? I had bulimia for 30 years, too. It is just one day at a time for me, though, as I have some days that are real hard and some that are not as hard. I'm scared of myself, too. Scared I'm going to go wild and eat everything in sight one of these days and I probably will, too. That's the nature of this beast. I am starting counseling on this coming Friday. I hope it will help me to deal with the B.E.D., too.

It is totally up to you SS what you want to do as you know. Are you happy? What do you want for yourself?

I hope it works for you!. you'll have to post updates on here about how it's going, (hey their's not such a bad Idea)

not many people post in the overeating section, so we could easily have threads for each of the members who post here to get support and to post updates

lol well,.. it's just an idea. i'm a strong believer in individual support

as for what I want, currently I don't know

Possible trigger:

I was suicidal again this year, and tried earlier (was hospitalised in april). to be honest, not being here is looking more and more apealing every day. I really don't think life can offer me anything, and likewise

I don't know though. what i'm doing with this overeating.. i'm surprised it's not killed me in itself

[LucyD]

Thank you for your encouragement SS. I really appreciate that. I'm in a blah mood today. Don't feel like doing much but hopefully later today or tomorrow I will have pulled out of it. I believe in individual support too and think your idea is fantastic. Maybe we should post individual threads and put our names on them. Mine could be something like Lucy's Journey. I'll think about what I want to do with that.

I'm real sorry you were feeling so bad earlier this year. I was in a worse place then too. My B.E.D. was depressing me to no end. Now I feel I have some control over it, at least today and I just try to get through each day as they come. I can't speculate about tomorrow or worry about it either. Getting through 24 hours is the best I can do. Eating disorders are so hard to have. They have plagued me most of my life.

I hope you will keep coming here and take hold of the hope I offer. Things can get better. You are a very nice, supportive and substantial person and you have helped me. I would really miss you if you were not here. Maybe the best things in life are still to come for you? Just maybe...

Originally Posted by LucyD

Thank you for your encouragement SS. I really appreciate that. I'm in a blah mood today. Don't feel like doing much but hopefully later today or tomorrow I will have pulled out of it. I believe in individual support too and think your idea is fantastic. Maybe we should post individual threads and put our names on them. Mine could be something like Lucy's Journey. I'll think about what I want to do with that.

I'm real sorry you were feeling so bad earlier this year. I was in a worse place then too. My B.E.D. was depressing me to no end. Now I feel I have some control over it, at least today and I just try to get through each day as they come. I can't speculate about tomorrow or worry about it either. Getting through 24 hours is the best I can do. Eating disorders are so hard to have. They have plagued me most of my life.

I hope you will keep coming here and take hold of the hope I offer. Things can get better. You are a very nice, supportive and substantial person and you have helped me. I would really miss you if you were not here. Maybe the best things in life are still to come for you? Just maybe...

yes. maybe

I mean who can really judge the future, right?

I think the worst part for me (at least), is not knowing what I want from life.

even the most depressed people end up with some idea- i've got nothing, and then it annoys me because so many people come up to me so sure of themselves and with a solid plan

just

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

yes. maybe

I mean who can really judge the future, right?

I think the worst part for me (at least), is not knowing what I want from life.

even the most depressed people end up with some idea- i've got nothing, and then it annoys me because so many people come up to me so sure of themselves and with a solid plan

just

We don't know the future. I don't really know what I want from life either. Lately I have been asking myself what is my purpose to be on this Earth? I don't have a plan either. I am just taking each day as they come and getting through them. It's okay not to know or not to have a plan.

Originally Posted by LucyD

We don't know the future. I don't really know what I want from life either. Lately I have been asking myself what is my purpose to be on this Earth? I don't have a plan either. I am just taking each day as they come and getting through them. It's okay not to know or not to have a plan.

thanks for reasurance.

I needed that

(((((hugs))))