[hufflepuffle]

Hello, so I have suffered from bulimia in the past and severe restricting. I am 16 years old and recently started binging uncontrollably after severe restriction and now I cannot stop. I really need help but I dont know what to do or where to begin. I lost 30 pounds in two months from restriction and now I am afraid to gain weight. Every night after a binge I tell myself tomorrow I will do better, I wont binge but the next day comes and I eat a fairly healthy breakfast and lunch and dinner then comes the binge, i get a craving and i tell myself I no dont do it dont do it, then im carrying a bunch of food to my room and next thing i know im stuffing my face saying why am i doing this, im better than this. Every day i have done this and i dont feel satisfied without doing it. I am at a loss. I dont know what to do. I cant tell my parents because they know about my restrictions and they wouldnt understand i know they would look at me the way I look at myself which is fat.:

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