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I had a whole bag of rice bites today. |
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I have only eaten my breakfast today so far
but for dinner I am having fries. not sure I should be entirely pleased with that (because I had fries every day last week), but I am, and it's what I like, so. |
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I was snacking all evening last night. My mom says I should watch the show called My 600 LB Life and maybe that will change me. But I just can't stop eating, I just can't. No one understands.
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#64
I feel too depressed to eat this evening.
I always forget depression can make you feel that way. but yep. it can |
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#65
I ate a whole bag of candy yesterday. I tried to put the candy in the other room to stop myself but I kept going back for more.
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#66
why am I so out of control???
Why do I eat my emotions? why can't I just stop eating once I feel full? why does food control me? __________________ What's so funny about peace, love and understanding? Elvis Costello |
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questions a lot of us here ask ourselves what I don't get especially, is that I actually hate food and if their was something I could do to survive that does not include food, I would do it in sted. still eat food anyway massive contridiction |
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Do we equate food with love? (oh did you scrape your knee? here's a candy) We can't live without it, so in some ways it controls us __________________ What's so funny about peace, love and understanding? Elvis Costello |
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#69
yesterday I pigged out on french fries
oink oink I'm such a pig |
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#70
Is it appropriate for me to post my own eating check in goals on this thread and post regularly or should I start my own thread don't wanna take yours over.
__________________ Diagnosis: Borderline Personality Disorder,ADD,PTSD. |
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I've been binge free since about April 10. I've lost 19lbs. But tonight I kind of just lost it. I HAD to have some refined sugar. It's funny because those cravings had gone away entirely, but I had to have something with refined sugar in it. So since it's after midnight, I drive over to the gas station and get two zebra cakes, this birthday cake thing that is a rice crispy treat, and a barq's root beer. I also got two bananas and an apple and some raw nuts for tomorrow since I'm holding off on going to the grocery store until after my trip, and I leave on Wednesday.
Anyways, I already had a high calorie day, but I'm actually proud of myself in how I handled the binge. Instead of drinking the whole bottle of root beer, I had one cup. I sliced off one serving size of the birthday rice crispy cake, and I haven't touched the zebra cakes yet, but they may both disappear. This feels different than past binges where it was every day and in secret...this is, I have a craving, I'm going through some crap right now, so I'm allowing myself a high calorie day. Tomorrow I'm cutting back a bit to make up for it and getting some extra exercise in to even out. Part of me worries this is some kind of relapse, but I know that it's not or that it doesn't have to be. 16 more pounds and I'll have met my first goal...I'm seeing that one pound that will get me to 20lbs down off this week. I'm hoping to get lots of hiking and yoga done while in the mountains this coming week. It will be nice to just take a break. I have to figure out sleeping arrangements though because if I have to sleep on their pull out sofa thing, I'm going to go crazy. Seesaw __________________ What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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#72
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#73
despite having a vomiting bug the last couple of weeks, I have not been put off binging on everything from potato chips to chocolate.
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#74
I really really need to cut down on the treats (I know, I always say it..)
but this week alone 3 KG of dolly mixtures 1 KG of fizzy watermellons 60 pack of monster munch it's ****ing shameful, I know. but I can't help it. |
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#75
things haven't improved much
ordered more of the chips and the candy, and despite trying to eat more proper meals, it's just not working. i'll cook myself for example a nice chicken pie, then go spoil it with 20 30 packets of chips. I need self control. I don't have self control |
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#76
sitting here eating chips.
but I think it's because I know my dinner's going to be small, so this time I actually have a reason... to fill myself up (even if it is with junk) |
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#77
not been a bad day.
had some marmite on toast for breakfast, virtually no snacks in the morning, and then for dinner I had turkey dinosaurs- and a couple packets of monster munch but it's okay.. it was only like 2 |
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#78
eaten loads of rubbish this afternoon.
loads ug... |
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#79
not done much better.
not just with the overeating, but with meal choices too... I've had sausages and chips now for 4 nights in a row and of course, I just completed my grocery shop, all junfood- all of it (accept for a little bottle of black currant squash) |
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#80
to be fair I've not had any takeout meals this week.
that's a good thing because I am trying to cut down on those |
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