BED is out of control

I have binge eating disorder. That feels so horrible to have to say. I feel so alone with it, misunderstood and like I have to hide it all, all of the time.

Bad dreams last night and I was awake, started binge eating about 3.30am until I’d finished the lot. It feels horrific. I feel disgusting and such a mess.

All I wanna do is stuff my face, push it all away. I don’t want this pain. I never did. I never asked for it!

Binge Eating Disorder is such a brutal illness and it imposes such a crushingly heavy burden on those who suffer from it. You are the victim of what this illness does to your brain. It is clear that you do everything you can to resist, given everything influencing you moment to moment. So I think you are a very heroic individual beset by overwhelming difficulties that you never asked for. Disorders of the brain are powerful, powerful forces. Often overwhelming. I admire you for putting up a fight when you can, knowing that it is hard to fight against an illness which affects one's brain. Wish I knew what to say to help you but sadly I am at a loss. I do want to tell you that my heart goes out to you!

Thank you. It’s so bloody difficult. I’m such a mess, feel like I’m about to blow 😔

I'm sending healing thoughts of light and love

Thank you fuzzybear, received with appreciation! In desperate need of healing thoughts and hugs too!

Boy do I know how this feels— I wake up several times each night and binge and it’s disgusting. It’s very, very hard to acknowledge; speaking personally, sometimes I just want to hide away and not be seen. Sorry, I didn’t mean to make this post about me— I guess my point is to empathize with you, show that you’re not alone in these feelings that you experience, and to give you kudos for coming on here and saying you have BED. That takes a lot of guts, and I’m impressed by that.

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