Past event caused my paranoia

I'm a senior in high school and I noticed that since junior year, I couldn't walk to the bus stop in the mornings by myself without the fear of getting killed. I noticed that every person/car I approach, I get tense and can't even breathe until that threatening person goes away and I feel safe again. Then I noticed that it happens at any time of the day as long as I'm alone. If I'm with people on a calm street or if I'm with people on a road where a lot of cars pass by, I don't feel tense/scared. I have this belief that if something were to happen to me, there'd be witnesses around.

I wanted to see why I felt this way because it was something new:

Sophomore year. 1st semester finals. I had woken up late, so I had missed the bus and I had to walk to school. When I was walking to school, late already, the avenue got deserted out of nowhere. This car was coming and I didn't pay much attention to it until the person in the passenger seat threw a glass bottle at me (and I know it was at me because I was the only one walking and there was a lot of space since my school is surrounded by fields in the middle of nowhere). I could see the bottle passing one foot in front of my face at rocket speed, I had to stop to make sense of what had happened, and then I kept walking.

I don't know if the reason of my paranoia is because of that event sophomore year and if I need help to overcome it because now I can't go out alone to the store or with friends without this paranoia/fear of getting killed. My mom and sister say I exaggerate but they don't know what goes through my head whenever "danger" comes my way and I don't think they know the incident sophomore year.

It sounds like the trauma of that incident had an effect on you. It might have triggered some other event inside.

Have you thought of talking to a therapist about this?

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It's gonna be ok. Try not to focus so much on what causes it. What's done is done. But you can change how you feel. What has helped me deal with anxiety is building my confidence. If you feel certain about your capabilities you start to feel better about these kinds of things. It also gives you a good sense of self awareness. Trust in yourself is a huge step in the right direction. I suggest you find something you want to get better at. Something that is important to you. When you find strength in yourself to do this for you it will feel great. That is what has worked for me. But whatever you do be patient with yourself. It isn't your fault that you feel the way you do but you can change it. Don't worry