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My husband has had a history of depression, and we have managed to survive episodes with the help of antidepressants and basically, a lot of time and patience. Usually he is very needy when he gets depressed, needs a lot of attention and care, and exhibits more physical symptoms (i.e. night sweats, convulsing, insomnia), but with his latest episode which started about 10 days ago, he has basically just disengaged with me which I am finding very hard. We are very close. He is not on any medication at the moment and we are travelling together, working on work related projects. So we are far away from any support network - medical and friends/family.

I just don't know what to do to help him. To make things worse, I'm finding it hard to manage. I work at a very demanding job and have started getting sick myself due to the stress. I have crying jags and recognize that I could be becoming depressed myself, but can't afford to be as he needs me to support him emotionally, mentally and physically. I love him very much, but am finding moments where I just don't know what to do and have no energy to do anything.

Anyone has any advice on how I can keep myself positive and how to keep our relationship alive when it feels like he doesn't want me or anyone around?