[youngdumbandinlove]

so i have BP, recently diagnosed, but also recently in a pretty intense relationship with my boyfriend. he is amazing but at the same time he isn't.... i dont know if its me thinking hes emotinally abusive or if he actually is, there is a long list of things i think he does worng and when i go to talk to him he is to busy, i know that he is busy most of the time but i wouldnt mind him actually making time for me and not standing me up cause im upset, cause that just makes me more upset and the problems between us get worse, im scared because i have always hurt the ones that are the closest to me before they have the chance to (even if they never planned on hurting me) but my bf is hurting me, he is hurting my feelings and idk if its just me being young dumb and in love or if theres some traits of bp coming into play?. i try so hard not to be "crazy" or like needy or anything, and i try not to show him that im breaking on the inside... but at this moment in time i think he needs to see the cracks cause sometimes when i show him, i dont think he actually sees. i don't know what to do and would like some advice from a bp, or a non bp dealing with a bp. that would be great. thanks for reading