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<div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2" bgcolor="#eeeeee"> <tr> <td bgcolor="#eeeeee"> <div align="center">Advanced Global Personality Test Results
<table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="4" bgcolor="#eeeeee"><tr> <td> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2" bgcolor="#eeeeee"> <tr> <td>Extraversion</td> <td width="61">||||</td> <td width="30">20%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Stability</td> <td width="61">||||</td> <td width="30">13%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Orderliness</td> <td width="61">||||</td> <td width="30">16%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Accommodation</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">56%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Interdependence</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">50%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Intellectual</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">56%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Mystical</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">50%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Artistic</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">56%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Religious</td> <td width="61">||</td> <td width="30">10%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Hedonism</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Materialism</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">83%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Narcissism</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">56%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Adventurousness</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Work ethic</td> <td width="61">||||||</td> <td width="30">30%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Self absorbed</td> <td width="61">||||||</td> <td width="30">30%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Conflict seeking</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">43%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Need to dominate</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">76%</td> </tr> </table> </td> <td> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2" bgcolor="#dddddd"> <tr> <td>Romantic</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">43%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Avoidant</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Anti-authority</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">83%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Wealth</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">43%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Dependency</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">83%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Change averse</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Cautiousness</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">56%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Individuality</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">76%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Sexuality</td> <td width="61">||</td> <td width="30">10%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Peter pan complex</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Physical security</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Physical Fitness</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">44%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Histrionic</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">83%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Paranoia</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Vanity</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Hypersensitivity</td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td>Female cliche</td> <td width="61">||||||</td> <td width="30">30%</td> </tr> </table> </td> </tr> </table> </div> </td> </tr> </table> Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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I went to talk to a therapist the other day, and he mentioned narcissism. he told me he thought i was and that my dad definately is.

i have little no no sexual identity, and it fluctuates. most of the time i dont believe in myself unless it is under some delusional pretense. there is so much fluctution with my ability to identify with heterosexuality that for the most part i do nothing, i get homophobic sometimes, sometimes i think i can just be alone forever, sometimes i get lonely....sometimes i dont. there is nothing easy about any of it though.

i read up on freud, and it sounds textbook in my case. narcissistic megalomania, gender narcissism (with identity), and delusion after delusion. its pretty bad i think, this has been growing inside me for years (im 20) and i dont think i can get out. it runs my life.

im in love with looking at myself, the relationships ive had never lasted and the few that did were dysfunctional. i constantly needed reassurance of how she felt for me and my feelings for her fluctuated too much. my level of sexual activity was different depending on the girl....there was fear involved.

i get depressed a lot, i get very angry at people who are not on my side a lot, i dont find a lot to be pleased with even though i have a lot internally, physically, and materially. im introverted, extremely. i dont really have friends and no girls either. sometimes i believe i can have them both, sometimes i dont think i can have either.

im really just looking for an avenue out of this. all my guesses at what was wrong are summed up with what narcissism is....and i hate it - i also hate my parents for it, specifically my dad. what can i do to get out of this?

Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53%
Stability || 10%
Orderliness |||| 13%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Interdependence |||||||||| 36%
Intellectual |||||||||| 36%
Mystical |||||| 23%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Religious |||||| 30%
Hedonism |||||||||||| 50%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Narcissism |||| 16%
Adventurousness |||||| 23%
Work ethic |||| 16%
Self absorbed |||||| 23%
Conflict seeking |||||| 30%
Need to dominate |||| 16%

Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||| 56%
Wealth || 10%
Dependency |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 70%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Individuality |||||||||| 36%
Sexuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||| 56%
Physical security |||||||||| 36%
Physical fitness |||||| 24%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Paranoia |||||||||||||| 56%
Vanity |||||||||| 36%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 63%

Stability results were very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were very low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.

trait snapshot:
messy, irritable, depressed, fragile, worrying, emotionally sensitive, does not like to lead, phobic, weird, suspicious, low self control, paranoid, frequently second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, weak, strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with the dark side of life, feels invisible, rash, vain, anti-authority, heart over mind, low self concept, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer, unadventurous