[Redsoft]

By total chance today, in scrolling down through all of the forums on PC, I noticed "Personality Disorders" and realized that I never really knew what the term meant, but knew it was a broad spectrum of individual things. I decided to look it up. That decision about two hours ago changed the tone of my day, probably my week.

After reading, I came upon schizoid personality disorder...I started reading, and it's so like me that the reading was creepy. I literally started crying reading. I'm not sure if it's relief that I'm not as all over the place as I think, shock that I found this so randomly, that I might be on to something, or if it's just because it was the topper on the cake and I'm just reaching another overwhelmed point. It looks like I share some of the traits? in schitzotypal as well.

Right now my diagnoses are major depression, generalized and social anxiety, non-specific mood disorder. I also deal with anorexia but am pretty on top of it.

Everything seems to align disturbingly, even the indication by the meds I take... I tried anti-depressant upon anti-depressant before meeting my psychiatrist I have now, and the alternative of Wellbutrin has been the only thing that ever did anything. I take another med for mood leveling (anger problems and acute reactions), and another for social and depression reasons, whose on-label use is for schizophrenia.

How did you first find out about possibly having a personality disorder? I'm freaked about just the notion that I'll have to go do my psychiatrist about this - it just sounds daunting and impossible.

[Phreak]

I first found out by receiving a letter which stated that "I'd scored clinically significantly for avoidant, borderline, depressive, obsessive compulsive and schitzoid personality disorders."

It had no definitions or explanations... It certainly made me feel slightly spaced out for the rest of the day as I had to go straight to work!

[Redsoft]

Ugh. Yeah, a letter like that would definitely do it for the day.

And here I thought things were getting simpler. Can't stand talk therapy and te fact I'll need to do so a bit to get to the bottom of this.