[Boo]

I am struggling in therapy. I have great fears that people don't care about me . I keep testing my therapist to see if she cares. I say and do things in therapy to see what she will say and do about it. There is this intensity inside me that drives this. I don't know where it ends. I feel like a bottomless hole. I will do anything. I scare myself. I am so sad and so scared.

[kaliope]

Have you discussed what you have written here with your therapist? i think it would be a good step. She could help you understand why and help you deal with it.

[Boo]

I try to but I am so scared. I don't know what to say. I am scared that she will think that I am too much of a burden and leave me. I feel so confused.

[BeYou]

I think you should look at what your therapist is doing good for you. If you are looking for things that a bad, that is all you will see. That is how brain works. Think of red car and all you see it's red cars. So there is nothing wrong with you, it is just how your brain works.