[gl41]

In my head I have fantasy worlds, completely detailed. They include my friends or people from TV, sometimes with different idenities, and I usually have a different Id. I will often speak out loud or act as I'm in them, and people think I'm nuts or talking to myself. I get caught up in them. Once in a while it takes me a while to realize I am in them. Could sit in them all day if I wanted to. Here is an example of one world I have, with some details left out:
I am Sammy and I have a lovely home with a huge family. My parents, a compassionate social worker/law professionalist dad and a neat freak, protective, oblivious and kind of nerdy nurse mom, adopted us all and gave us a place to go since we have nowhere and they support and accept us. I currently have 9 teen/tween siblings, a toddler brother, and a little sister. (All people from real life, with same first names.) We have a comic and great life, being there for each other and stuff. We've all come from bad pasts, like abuse or abandonment or trauma or home country issues or something but we have each other so we don't feel pain, besides for any ossues from inside the family, which aren't really that bad. We basically do everything together, and have a We Are Family thing going on. The dad sings to us at fires and Pep talks us. The mom is full of love and ridiculous, campy kindness.
And another one I've sort of grown out of:
I am Kendall and I have a good home, loving parents and two brothers. I am a ftm but family accept me. I am sort of a mama's boy at times.

(I don't have any horrible memories to base this on so that isn't PTSD)

Another side is that with some people, I try to make reputations. I will act like I am that person in my fantasy, going every length and covering every inch to make it seem real as possible. I act like I live there for real. I tell stories and explain stuff like that person would. I even posed as Sammy's loving mom to text someone, and even dropped a box of treats off at someone's house. I sometimes model myself after them also. And I know I am doing it. I am aware that the fantasy world is fake but I make it seem like it is my real life. When I am done having a conversation or making my way, I'm satisfied and I may or may not feel bad.

What is going on with me? And does anyone have this?

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi gl41

Thank you for your introduction and for asking this question.

Members may, or may not be able to come forward with some personal experiences based upon your description.

I am wondering if you have seen a therapist to discuss your current concerns regarding this?

[gl41]

I have not. I am sort of alone on this. I am a teen and I live alone most of the time. Also it is hard to talk to family because i feel judged.
So I am referring here out of curiosity and maybe to see if I have a specific disorder or illness, so I can do research and find myself a special counselor for specific issues.

[freespirit37]

Sounds like some sort of dissociative disorder