[sumiyelle]

Hi, I'm sheila. . This will be my first post here
For about 2 years I virtually met a person who I gladly called my friend. At first it was great, in real life, I suffer from clinical depression and a dependent personality disorder (passive) . I lived online, consistently it became addicting , I have a developed a close bond with this mentally ill person with multiple personalities and depression. We got closer than I thought and they made me believe I was special to them. Even sending me a gift for my birthday last year. I was hurt that they told me their personality , adapted to fit my 'needs', I was severely depressed, no self-esteem, they told me basically all the things I was hoping to hear.. I felt sick. They also had a cat, but he/she killed the poor feline due to its clawing? They got angry and threw it back and forth against the Floor.. They really loved the cat. I kinda feel bad for them but they're manipulative, we had a goal to meet in real life one day, they constantly told me I HAD to work toward it.. And that 'I didn't want it bad enough'. So I asked, and they said 'idk I was asking myself that also'. So not only did you make me feel bad about not trying.. You turn around and say you don't want it to happen?
I ended it last night, I cried, I emotionally invested my time and energy..into this mess. I knew it was wrong but I had a hope that they would change eventually and that they weren't as bad as they seemed.

Hi there! Welcome to Psych Central!

Thanks for introducing yourself to us and telling us about yourself. I hope that you find this site as useful as I have.

You can find answers to pretty much anything in our forums, as well as seek advice from other members. You will find everyone here is very supportive.

Welcome to the group!

i'm so sorry, that sounds traumatic, especially getting so close to a person who is not as they seem.

you might want to check out the Personality Disorder forum and the Depression forum. try to focus on you, as you are so much more important than that person.

[Agarwaen]

Wow. Killing a cat? I don't care what reason. That's sadistic.

My only real social life is online. I don't make friends easily. And if I do, it rarely lasts. That is on me. I have issues I need to deal with, and I have been trying for years with no success. My social life consisted of gaming. Then it all blew up, and I have no social life online, or not. I choose not to go through the same things again, online. It was a lesson I wish I never learned.

So I think I understand a little of what your are saying. Everyone is different, so I am not trying to say I know you, but I empathize a great deal.

I hope you have better success than I have had. That won't be hard to do.