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Old May 17, 2009, 07:10 PM
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Hello.

This is my first post to this forum.

Last week I had a bladder infection and a woman friend who is an acupressurist gave me a treatment.

She didn't do anything!

It was very professional and non-abusive and pleasant.

But the next morning, I freaked out.

I felt so bare, naked and vulnerable.

Like she had somehow gotten inside of me.

I wish I hadn't let her do it!

I don't know why.

B.

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Old May 18, 2009, 04:00 AM
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sounds like you were triggered - is there past abuse? it could have brought back body memories/

My pdoc asked me to lie down while he talked me through a relaxation technique and i had to get up told him I was panicking that althoug I trusted him I couldnt lie down - this could be the same thing.

(if ok)

how are you going now?
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she didn't do anything; but I freaked out!
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Old May 19, 2009, 07:13 PM
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Here's an update:

TRIGGER***********************************************

This may be upsetting news:


The same woman has been calling me all week nonstop, wanting to be friends with me and NOT leaving me alone for an instant.

she's been asking me probing questions and NOT taking no for answers.

I just talked to her brother today.

He just told me that she m*l*sted him when they were children! I am about to report her to the police!

I hope i can have her put AWAY.j

I HATE her!

Billi
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Old May 19, 2009, 07:35 PM
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I am glad you are reporting her - I am sorry that she is harrassing you like this - let us know how you are going ok
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
she didn't do anything; but I freaked out!
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 20, 2009, 06:36 PM
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they have her in jail now, but I am dealing with horrible rage.

I thought she was my friend.

I feel so betrayed!

But I was right about her.

I was right about her.

I know now why I had ugly feelings about that treatment she gave me.

she hadn't done anything, but I had picked up something from her.

Billi
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Old May 20, 2009, 08:09 PM
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I am sorry you are upset - hope you feel better soon
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
she didn't do anything; but I freaked out!
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 21, 2009, 09:35 AM
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((((((Billi))))) How horrible! I feel so bad for you, but good on you that you called the police and took care of your self. I guess maybe the only good thing that you might consider came out of this is to underscore your gut feelings and trusting them. We may not always be right, that's okay. But generally we should trust our gut feelings. I'd rather be safe than right.
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I'd rather have a visit, note or pretty picture
than an "I'll say a prayer" or a "god bless you."
Doesn't make me feel better, no meaning to me for sure.
Can't stop you from praying and blessing me,
and if that makes you feel better feel free.
But keep it to yourself please, don't tell me.
And let's all respect each other's feelings.
With kindness, support and "sweet dreamings."
Thanks for this!
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Old May 21, 2009, 03:31 PM
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(((B)))---if hugs are ok

Your rage is understandable and it may take you a bit to work through it. Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing...

Pom is right about trusting our instinct. I learned that the hard way and I've never forgotten it.
The other thing I absolutely had to understand and let go of was my anger at myself...like I had done something wrong or initiated the action.
And that's a nearly normal response when we are dealing with events like this...please don't take responsibility for her actions. You had no way of knowing...

Good for you for taking care of it!

Best wishes for peace to come back into your heart,
Catherine
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Old May 21, 2009, 04:29 PM
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OMG! She molested him! No wonder you felt funny, esp if you had any of that sh$$ in yr past...I do...it gives us built in molester detectors. Very brave to take action!
What a frakkin' trauma, for you! Esp., if you have PSTD, like me.
All I can say is hang in there, stay focused in the now, relax and dostract yourself... I support you
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Thanks for this!
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Old May 21, 2009, 04:39 PM
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How are you doing?
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
she didn't do anything; but I freaked out!
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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