[kaliope]

I was triggered a couple of weeks ago, the worst of the episode itself only lasted about an hour. I was proud of myself that I didnt go to bed crying and I seemed "over it". But since then, my anxiety level has seemed to increase to the point where I question if I should get back on buspar. I am aware of my anxiety every morning when I am driving to work. I do breathing exercises in an attmept to reduce it that dont really seem to take the edge off anymore. Finally the distraction of work dampers it but i find myself taking lots of smoke breaks where i was only a light smoker before. I generally smoke to reduce the anxiety of driving. Now i find myslef going outside for a cigarette at night as well, when i never smoke at home. I am agitated and little things seem to be getting the best of me. Usually I am onthe agoraphobic side, but this weekend being cooped up is driving me nuts and i want to go,go,go. but i have no where to go because i isolate so much normally. i dont recall this behavior happening with past PTSD episodes. and this one was so much differnt than past epidsodes. my one prior to this, i went to a meeting where there were a bunch of people from my past from a past tramatic situation and later that night I had a breakdown that lasted to the following day. My T said it was a PTSD episode. This time, I ran into somebody and it was like running into a door, my limbs went numb, my head started spinning, i got nauseous, i started to cry, my face went flush. It was unlike anything I ever experienced with my PTSD. my triggers are usually long an drawn out, including flashbacks and such. this was nothing like that. so i am wondering, has it triggered all this lingering anxiety and agitation that I have going on now.

[mokie]

I just realized that I have to go back on buspur. I thought I was over anxiety but it has hit again. So back to buspar for me. I have also dealt with PTSD and lately wonder if my symptos are coming back. I know it's hard taking our meds but we do need them.