[crazylife]

Have you ever been triggered by something but have no idea what and not even sure what the result of being triggered was.
I was severely triggered with my T today and i couldn't understand what triggered me, i didn't have flashbacks or anything just felt really panicky then went dissociative.
Any one else been there?

[Open Eyes]

Yes, I was triggered by my T, but I knew what it was about. I have been triggered in PC lots of times, not really knowing what it was, but eventually I did realize it.
I was tiggered a lot by my husband and didn't know exactly why. I am becoming more aware of why.

I think you have to go over the session in your mind along with the comments the therapist made and his facial expressions. His comments may have dismissed something that you thought was important to you. He may have reminded you of a need you had that wasn't met.

I admitt that it is unsettling when a trigger happens and I don't know why. But I really try to figure it out. It could be something bubbling up from your past that your not aware of yet, ugh, I actually hate when that happens. Now, I just try to go easy on myself and see if something comes out. Please keep in mind that triggers are questions, reminders of discomfort or confusion from your past. Try very hard not to think of them as something you will always have but as things you will learn to finally overcome, where in your past you didn't know how to overcome. That is what I am recognizing more and more.

(((((Hugs)))))
Open Eyes

[Open Eyes]

((((cazylife))))

Here is my day today in tracing triggers.
I woke up as normal at the bottom of the bed because my husband tends to thrash a bit while he sleeps, and even though I put a pillow between us for protection that only lasts for just so long. I am not aware that I have developed this habit of winding up huddled to the bottom of the bed. Sometimes this triggers me and I don't know why. Ok after waking up sometimes in the middle of the night triggered or in the morning triggered, I finally realized that I am being reminded of when my husband drank and in his sleep even punched me. I don't know, but along the way I came up with the idea of using the pillow to soften his blows. And that is a trigger that goes way back to me looking for ways to hide behind things.

Anyway, I am often a bit hungover in the morning from my medication and so I have a cup of coffee and come to PC to try to get my mind going. So I did that this morning and checked a thread and I was again triggered. So I kinda saw the trigger and decided to see if I could address it with some humor. And it kinda worked.

Then I posted somewhere else and read a bit and was awake enough to take out the dogs and then go do the horses. While I was doing that I thought about what triggered me and thought of a different way to address it. And so I posted again and it didn't help so I posted somewhere else and a little after that wasn't sure of that post either and went back an that post was critisized and I was triggered again. Ugh,
so then I got angry at myself and asked myself, why is the bothering me? So then I posted a better explaination of another post and then I was critiqued again. Ofcourse it triggered me and my anxiety came up and my husband came home and grunted and he was in a bad mood and I tried to hide that I was fighting off anxiety from being triggered as he doesn't get it quite yet and because of that it is often a waste of time to tell him that I am struggling. So, he leaves and I am trying to figure out why I am so bothered and I went out to the barn to feed the horses dinner and I had a flashback about my sister (who abused me and she has narcissitic tendencies and talks to me in a condescending manor like I am a child and even spells things out).
So, as things perculated up I began to realize why I was triggered, and where it came from in a flashback.
Pretty much everything that came up was a question from my past. It all revolves around things I experienced and did not know HOW to deal with in my past. I cannot even be around my sister or hear her voice without experiencing flashbacks or disabling triggers. But I know what that comes from as she was 4 years older, know it all, have to have control, only was nice if I went along with HER WAY to this DAY. And if I try to stand up to her, she hangs up on me, walks away with the last word, or starts ORDERING ME AROUND spelling things out like I am that little toddler that experienced things I DID NOT LIKE!!!

Hello PTSD, yes I know your still there, I am trying to work on it.

Open Eyes

[Crew]

((((((crazy life))))))))))

The answer to your question is YES! Your not alone.... and I am so glad you are here discussing it. That is Huge!

Are you familiar with Grounding Skills?

There is a "sticky note" just above where you saw "new thread?'
underneath is discussing Grounding Skills.

If you could learn to use "grounding skills" eventually you will understand what your being triggered from. I know this helps cause it helped me and I feel unhelpable ( I know that isn't a word (yet )

Just something to think about,
Crew and nice to meet you and Later, Crew