[beauflow]

This has been bothering me--

I feel some days as a waste due to I have spent years (before therapy and after the short run and during the short run) of trying to figure it out- YES after The Short term therapy it was coming to a conclusion that -- I DON"T Need to figure it out -- SOME Things I NEED TO JUST ACCEPT.... which is difficult..

I feel like a waste with getting so consumed with my thoughts of past, and troubles of now that remind me of the past and breaking free of them at times... I feel like a waste some days

Worst YET I feel LOST Some days which does not help this at all...

To be honest I am not sure if this fits the PTSD of mine or another Dx... just some thoughts

[AngelWolf3]

I don't know if this helps, but i am kinda going thru the part where you said you keep thinking about the past. My mom had a bunch of old boxes of my stuff and I had to go thru them and I was/am really triggered, and I keep thinking WHAT A WASTE OF TIME it is to dwell on this and make myself feel crazy and depressed about it.

*sigh* don't feel like going to a 4th of July get together but I hope it will distract me. Sorry this turned into a kindof ramble.

I am glad that you were able to try to just accept things rather than figure them out. I like to analyze stuff so that part is coming hard to me

I am sorry I don't have answers and I hope I don't seem selfish for venting in your thread.

When you feel lost what do you do to find yourself again?
*hugs*

[beauflow]

((Wolfin3)) the ''accepting the past is the past'' is rather difficult for me as well.. over anilyzing i do as well but it sometimes does more damage than good.. which is why it has came to the conclusion with some things just accept but it is a working progress as wel... at this i ''seem'' to do this but in ''truth'' i haven't fully due i come back to it with over anylizing it. feel likes a waste some days, been stuck and i get angry with myself with like ''unable to move forward''

then i see, it is like i am running around in a circles in my mind.

as far as lost, i think i just say, this is what it is, and stay where i am.. or at least as i remember right now...
i have plans but not sure were to start or scared it wont change. or i am chaotic on what to do.

i know, it is all me on what to do.
i am sorry you understand part of what i am saying, it makes me frustrated somedays. blah

i hope you have fun with you get to gether, and thanks for rambling

sometimes distractions help

[AngelWolf3]

I am glad I was able to distract you!!! Yay! I hope that your day turned out all right? Mine actually did, I was going to be stubborn and not go, but I am glad I did...even ate a cookie...Mmmm.

[Hellion]

Yeah all the time...some people tell me I'm not but I have a hard time beliving them.

[beauflow]

Originally Posted by Hellion

Yeah all the time...some people tell me I'm not but I have a hard time beliving them.

I agree Hellion some times it is hard not to believe,

I tend to find me feeling like a waste when the "same" problem keeps popping up and i am still trying to cope with it.... then I have clarity and feel better for a some time, till another bump..

though, I can feel like a waste with out reason-- I am not sure if this is the PTSD or another one of the DX.

I wish sometimes it would be explained better..

[AngelWolf3]

Originally Posted by beauflow

I tend to find me feeling like a waste when the "same" problem keeps popping up and i am still trying to cope with it.... then I have clarity and feel better for a some time, till another bump..

I totally feel you on this one. (at least for me) this is what it feels like: It's almost like I feel guilty for having the same problem, like WHY can't I just let it go or get over it!? Yep, and those nasty bumps. Grrr. Sometimes it feels like it's no longer a road, but one continuous bump with a little road in it!!!

[beauflow]

Originally Posted by Wolfin3

I totally feel you on this one. (at least for me) this is what it feels like: It's almost like I feel guilty for having the same problem, like WHY can't I just let it go or get over it!? Yep, and those nasty bumps. Grrr. Sometimes it feels like it's no longer a road, but one continuous bump with a little road in it!!!

Wolfin3
yep yep yep...

Some times I get frustrated at myself when a bump comes and my whole world stops... that there is (I think at least) an indicator of in need of better coping skills-- life should not STOP due to the bump in the road, where the bump consumes the road as you mention

Sometimes it feels like it's no longer a road, but one continuous bump with a little road in it!!!

Get like this especially when it is an issue "I thought I got over"... blah

((((Beau)))) friend. All the time. It is one of the greatest thing I struggle with.

[beauflow]

((Rose))

i hope some day this feeling that we all feel, goes away with something, either coping skills or things turning up for the better.... It is a wish I suppose, it is a good thought