[HatingHerReflection]

I've been suffering from flash backs and nightmares for a long time but I keep getting new ones, things that I didn't even remember I wake up screaming or crying and when you have your other half in bed with you it's so hard as I don't want to wake him.......

I did have therapy for them a few years ago but they discharged me once they thought we had worked through everything but its obvious that's not the case.....

My nightmares are horrible I feel everything and they always seem soooooo real and when I wake up I'm so disorientated and I hate it I'm bloody 22 and at night I won't even go down stairs on my own, when I go to the toilet I have to leave the bathroom door open as closing it scares the hell out of me I feel like a little child

I can't sleep at night very well as I'm so scared of seeing his face when I'm asleep it feels like my life is being run by him and I don't feel that there is much I can do I'm never going to just forget what happened to me am I??? Am I ever going to be able to deal with it??

[lostgman]

Originally Posted by HatingHerReflection

I've been suffering from flash backs and nightmares for a long time but I keep getting new ones, things that I didn't even remember I wake up screaming or crying and when you have your other half in bed with you it's so hard as I don't want to wake him.......

I did have therapy for them a few years ago but they discharged me once they thought we had worked through everything but its obvious that's not the case.....

My nightmares are horrible I feel everything and they always seem soooooo real and when I wake up I'm so disorientated and I hate it I'm bloody 22 and at night I won't even go down stairs on my own, when I go to the toilet I have to leave the bathroom door open as closing it scares the hell out of me I feel like a little child

I can't sleep at night very well as I'm so scared of seeing his face when I'm asleep it feels like my life is being run by him and I don't feel that there is much I can do I'm never going to just forget what happened to me am I??? Am I ever going to be able to deal with it??

Flashback nightmares suck. Its hard to tell yourself it's just a bad dream when your nightmares are your memories. They do feel real...especially when they are trauma related....because they were real at one time in our lives. It's hard to wake up scared and screaming and then have to fully wake up to realize that you are safe.

I understand not wanting to wake your partner. I don't like that I wake my wife, but she does help me get grounded and is very comforting.

I think it might be time for you to start therapy again. Sounds like you may have some things in your past that haven't been resolved and the nightmares are bringing them to your attention.

I don't think we ever forget....but I think we do learn to process...heal...and continue to move ahead with each passing day.


Gman

[HatingHerReflection]

I am seeing someone again but he doesn't think I'm mentally stable enough for therapy yet...... But he is going to keep seeing me so that he knows when I'm ready for therapy again I see him once a week at the minute and hopefully it will stay like that for know at least it just feel so hard and feel like I'm doing on my own and it also feels like no one understand

[halmegamb1]

no we never forget. you are already dealing with it. the flashbacks will come and go. you need to try and get back in to therapy to rebuild your strength. rememeber what you've learned. do what you need to do to feel secure. 1 by 1 remove them as you find yourself getting stronger. when the bad dreams come, imagine a safe happy place and close your eyes. relieve yourself of stress before getting into bed.