[michele#3]

A man was holed up in my building in a standoff with the police threating to commit suicide. It took about seven hours and a S.W.A.T. team to get the guy out.
It makes me very angry that housing knew about this guy and let him come in the building at all (he didn't live in my building and wasn't suppose to be there). I told them many times over the years that the situation was really dangerous and they used one excuse after another as to why they didn't prevent him from being here at all. I am livid with these people. I don't like feeling really threatend and feeling like I need a gun to protect myself.
Anyway, the whole thing has added to my already existing PTSD. I'm afraid that because of this I'll withdraw even more. As it is I'm not answering my phone most of the time now and just want to be home playing my video games.

[Open Eyes]

(((michele))),

I am sorry that happened and can see why it would trigger the PTSD to act up.
Do you see a therapist to help you work through the PTSD?

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[michele#3]

Thanks for the cyber hugs Open Eyes.
Yes, I do see a therapist. When I talked to him the other day he said that he totally agrees with me. He also gave me some hints on how I can deal with my worsening anxiety. I've always had anxiety issues. They have gotten worse since that happened.
It makes me really mad that I have to put up PTSD and social anxiety in the first place. Worsening PTSD and phobia make me even angrier.
Another thing that makes me mad is that this apartment house is suppose to be for people with psyche issues. It's more like a warehouse for those of us that are psychiatrically impaired.

[jelly-bean]

That had to be a frightening experience and I can see why you are angry and your anxiety is worse for it. Fortunately you have a therapist who can help you. I wish that there was something I could say to help make it better but I'm gonna have to leave that up to your T. Hopefully the building managers have learned something from this and will be much more careful from now on.

[halmegamb1]

society can be a challenge. always your greateast weapon is your own mind. pick a place to go and take that first step.locking yourself in only makes them stronger. free yourself and make them weaker. step by step

[Gadgetsmile]

It sounds like a very difficult position to be in. Hopefully with your therapist you can work through some of it to help you begin to be more social again.

Hope things get better soon x