[Littlefish]

I feel so dizzy when they comes...
r there any good ways? sleep?
weep?

[Evangelista]

((Littlefish))..sorry you are having to go thru this..there are some grounding techniques listed at the top of the forum which can help..if you need to weep..its ok..anything that helps you get thru it when it occurs..and then just deep slow breaths..be gentle with yourself..

[alisandria]

(((littlefish)))) I think one of the things I try to remember to do is BREATH...I have a tendency to either hold my breath, or hyperventilate...yeah, go figure, huh? I don't know when or why I started doing that, I think it goes back to childhood...

Anywho, these techniques I have found to work well (learned them years ago) remind myself of where I am, conciously make steady movements (that way I don't start getting myself even more excited or agitated with it), BREATH, take an inventory of what is around me-oh the flowers smell beautiful, the sun is shining, the warmth feels good (you might not actually feel it at the moment, but you are redirecting your sensations and mind response)...I'm safe, I am secure, I am okay (those are my key words, you might find others that work for you).

Practing the techniques throughout the day will help best when an onset of a flashback comes around, because you are already conditioning yourself to deal with it differently. Takes time, but like they say Rome wasn't built in a day, right???

Hugs, Lisa

[Littlefish]

I m starting to get clear and more organized dreams now, it is a progress for me, cuz i lost sense and organized thinking in life, but now dreams start to organize.But hard to sleep well, cuz dreams r so clear and horrible, wake up me many times, but those dreams r not as chaoes as before.

but still in dark, dreams r with clear and long story, when I awake, i see life everyone everything is still dead feelings.....when i go shopping or see others smile etc, i still feel both me and them r dead ...

It starts from when i was about 14. One afternoon I suddenly felt dark,and then i lost sense for a few minutes, since then I had all dark feelings following me,someone says it is manipulate demonic power taken me since then.

And I still seeking objects everywhere to talk rubbish or throw out pain and accuse , and same time feel panic and horrible inside. I m repeating the same game again and again i played all my life which is a desperation game.Not sure why.

I think it is because I still with little God strength.

[alisandria]

How are you doing littlefish??? Just thought I would stop by here to see. Hope you are doing ok. hugs, Lisa

[(JD)]

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someone says it is manipulate demonic power taken me since then.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I'm sorry that someone suggested this. While I do believe in the supernatural, both good and evil, most of mental illness is NOT due to the evil.

Often ppl ...well-meaning ppl... often well-meaning Christian ppl... say this for a few reasons, imo. 1) They don't understand how ppl can suffer in spite of a faith in God, 2) The comment removes all burden from them to do anything further for you, but places all the responsibility directly on your own shoulders and 3) People truly do not understand mental unwellness and the mind-body connnection and how awesome God made us so intricately.

I'm sorry you suffered, and continue to suffer. Please don't take off handed comments to heart. We both know better Flashbacks are confusing enough without other's ignorant comments, imo. ((((littlefish))))

[JustAPixie]

(((((((( littlefish )))))))

[Littlefish]

And i often feel sleepy every moment when those flash comes, i think it is spiritual down,,,,,,,,

I need fresh again, it is bad to feel sleepy oftenly and so despair

[Renew]

praying for you.

[razeljenny]

Peteit-mal's do that. They are miniscule sesures that occur in some of us. Usually due to a hard fall when young, or a awful trama they occur to adults and usually started in the childhood. They can in and of themselves be because of epilesy. They can have occured because of oxygen deprivation in young years or some birth injury (oxygen dep) that was mild and not severe enough to get noticed by your peditrition. Also glycemic variations that started in earily childhood and were not severe enough to get noticed cause peteit-mal type losses of consciousness that are so "mild" even "you" don't recognize it as a slight loss of consciousness. Also at times a child that has been sexually molested at a extremely young age goes into the sugar insulin mild shocks with just a twinkling of the eye and it is hardly noticable to yourself or anyone else either untill after it occurs.(keeps continuing to happen over and over during the day for many years, triggered by even slight tinge of fear, or apathy even) (actually it can't be pinpointed usually by you or Anyone at All- You just feel violated, like crap and so fuzzy-tramatized too-and consciously you can't think of one blessed reason for that feeling of being tramatized, --but for darn sure YOU JUST REALLY DO !!!!!!!!!!! NO KIDDING- i KNOW )

The biggest feeling of dullness, and severe confusion commences and lags on and on for such a person (and I myself am one that first hand experienced it.) Even birth canal difficulty causes the post tramatic stress type issue or(what they call- demonized ) touched tonal presence in a person, (such as myself-i been through it) I could have continued dealing with it in an endless type LOOP, if you know what I mean. Could have stayed in the ENDLESS LOOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes- the answers vary from place to place but No One has ever revealed what to DO ABout IT. All I can say is that I am here for you- to encourage you- LIttle FISH and others do love you very much and can extend our compassion to you for all of the unnesecessary pain and suffering you have gone thru. Just know that I pray and also want the best for you in every way and know that you are going to try and get to the bottom of this Little Fish. The answer lies within yourself, from your friends and from the healing Savior. All of this is necessary for you to get well and not one without the other. Some healing takes a concerted effort- which means to grow and get better you have to work (with excruciating pain, )pray to God, as well as listen to others. Each one of these will aid you and not one alone. Demons are a smaller part, but work lies ahead in every area of investigation and not just one PARTICULAR area. You can acheive it because I know you can and believe in you- LittleFish. Love Razeljenny I found my way through it. (I had the sleeep nitemares and talking too.(which started at about 14) I had disassociations during the day. I could not eat right becauee I felt sexually violated too. I got too in love too fast also when I was around 16 and on up to my 40's. I floundered in fundamental Christianity fast becfore I ever once learned who I was and how to just "Simply" communicate with regular folks in a little more modern community too, just like you Little Fish. I even feel like I know you as if looking into a Mirror. Is this true? Please fight the goodd fight Little Fish, no one is laughing.

[Renew]

Aren't petite mals like staring spells? I have epilepsy myself and have had petite-mals and grand-mals in my life, and never were they associated with dark clouds that did what that did to littlefish. i have experienced every kind of seizure myself.

Thanks for encouraging littlefish.

[razeljenny]

Yes, true, they (petit-mals) can be noticed with a symptom of a staring spell. (When this happens to me) I would also hear a real noise and get mesmerized drawing my listening features to it or start shaking one leg or another for some moments, or start clenching my hands or moving my head side to side or my neck, or grinding my teeth with great repetition (yet barely noticable to many other people) . I would get enveloped in an auditory or visual sensation stimulous for several minutes and when I came back I did not know where I was or anything much at all.

There were times I painted up and embellished the visual stufff I was having, as a matter of fact usually often I did that. The senseing was actual and I could taste see smell and feel tactally all of this for many minutes Renew. (her know that there is a dark cloud) I can say that truthfully. I do agree that it is a combination of chemicals, spiritual, some trama, some trigger emotions that get the image started, than it gets taken over by the warfare we talked about, than it flicks back to her chemicals, and the LOOP Goes ON THUS basically
what could be considered ENDLESS LOOP. The origans can plausibly be all three considerations spoken of on this board, spiritual, physical, emotional, all of which are plausible theories which we have configured. I agree with the message that was written , shared and the belief that was spoken forth as well Mr. Renew. Thanks for listening to me and my ideas. They are just my opinions, and I do not wish to offend you or anyone and hope Little-Fish starts feeling better. Love, Razel-j

[Renew]

i am not offended. i too agree with combination. But i do not want to stay off-topic. this is for healing for Littlefish. Most of my conversations will take place in a pm. There is a lot of good advice offered here too. I will try and keep the personal part out of this, because i want littlefish to be able to keep the conversations for her healing

Littlefish how is your sleeping patterns these past few days? Still dizziness? How much water do you get? And can you explain how the dizziness happens (what seems to trigger it)?

Only answer whatever comfortable.