[MotownJohnny]

Do you find that your "depression" doesn't "look like" or "feel like" the typical depression that you read about, hear about?

I know that with me, I can be very "depressed" in other words, despondant and suicidal, but that never stops me physically. When I was in the day hospital program, I generally found it sort of curious that a number of people there being treated for "unipolar depression" would relate their struggles to literally just get out of bed and move, be it to shower, to eat, whatever. Because that was never me.

I think I can remember one or two times in my life being so sad that I "took to my bed" for maybe half a day, at most.

Otherwise, I guess my depression is purely phsychological, because it isn't physical - I still keep moving, even if I don't have a lot of enthusiasm for anyting I'm doing. And, I do find certain types of things, involving a lot of physical activity which can be somewhat "destructive" but not in a bad way, helpful - say, tearing out old wallboard or knocking down an old brick wall that needs to go, that sort of thing.

Maybe I am the atypical one, but I know I have talked to at least a few other PTSD patients who have related they too "keep moving" even in their worst moods.

[JaneC]

Yes, I am the same. I have always kept moving even at the absolute worst moments when I was "clinically depressed". And now also, it is as if I am running as fast as I can to move away from the depressed feelings, for survival.

Back in my darkest days, they labelled me as being 'high functioning' because I held down a regional management position overseeing 4 optometry practices at the same time as practicing as an optician, being a full time single parent etc etc. I just kept moving...........it was not good.

I do think depression manifests differently for me at least(seems you too) with CPTSD. I wish it would go away.........