[alice in horrorland]

Short story is a traumatic loss of both parents back to back from cancer suddenly and viciously. Memories kill me. Almost lost my son between my parents deaths to a car accident, he now has TBI (traumatic Brain Injury) for life. A brain impact that left him in a coma for 2 months. Then, my siblings decided money meant more to them then I didn. They cut me out of their lives and I havent seen or spoken to them in almost 2 years, including my niece and nephews. I went through a divorce, custody battle and loss, job loss, and would have became homeless if not for my boyfriend. Who is abusive, and is the only person I have left in this world. But, he has abused me physically, forcing emergency room assistance, and a cat scan with a broken forehead bone. Ive been verbally, sexuallmentally, and emotionally abused by him many times. I want to leave but I have no job, car, money, friends or family. Which then causes my PSTD to trigger. I am dpressed, have depression and anxiety but no insurance to get meds. Then, I find my bf goes online with my name (a cery unusual name that you never see or hear) and posts in all types of profiles degrading tjings about me, specific things that make me know its him. I need help. What do I do other then give up?

[ThisWayOut]

Sounds like you are dealing with a whole lot. Can you contact a DV crisis center? They should be able to help you put some things in order to be able ot get away from your BF and maybe even help you get conneccted with mh services for the ptsd.
ncadv.org, ndvh.org (1-800-799-7233), and thehotline.org could be good starting places. 211 (infoline) might also be available in your area. they would be able to point you to local DV contacts and other resources to help you get to a safe place.
You deserve to be safe from all this.

[Disorder7]

I agree with This Way Out. A battered women's shelter can provide a place to stay and may help you get a job and on your feet, including counseling.
Also, you may be entitled to victim's compensation. They will help you through the judicial process and your boyfriend may end up owing you money for hurting you.

I have no family or friends either. People like us feel like we have no where to run, but there are social services available for us. We just have to reach out. Take care.

[GeminiNZ]

Sounds like you have a lot going on and not much support. I'm in a different country so unsure what resources are available to you, but i agree with the other posters about reaching out to social services.

You don't have to deal with everything on your own - there are people who can and will help. And this is a good place to come for support, too.

[Ad Intra]

Wow you have been through a lot. It also seems like you've had so much dumped on you on such a short period of time. The way I see it you're currently just trying to do the best you can with your life circumstances.
Right now you maybe able to get help through some social services. Does your area have a local mental health clinic? Often time there are therapists, social workers and doctors who can help you overcome this point in your life. They may also be able to help you find ways to pay for your medication. Also, is there any local women's centers that can help?
Please keep us updated!