I wasn't sure if I should post this here or in survivors of abuse (I may end up posting it in both forums)

but I can't seem to get my family to leave me alone

when I least expect it, my family seem to be in the room with me- talking to me, trying to hurt me, moving stuff around..

they live 2 hours away from my location and I know deep down they are nowhere to be seen

but

*shivers*

i'm not really sure about what to do about it

it all seems so real lately

Possible trigger:

today they were here with a knife, trying to cut my throat- and I screamed

but it was in to the empty air- no one was their to hear me

this is in the middle of the day usually

i can't control it and just want it all to stop

[PumpkinPieHead]

I replied in the other forum,too, but I reiterate, they're just thoughts. That must be so scary for you, I'm sorry.
The last dream I had of them was masked people trying to break into my home. I woke up and knew that my body was expressing the fear I have of them, tracking me down to persecute me.

[MommaD]

ShatteredSanity, it sounds terrifying for you. I'm so sorry.
If you're under the care of a therapist or doctor, perhaps you could contact them? These symptoms really sound upsetting to you and I'm hoping they can help.
I can't do much but reiterate what Pumpkinpiehead said: these are thoughts, not physical reality. You don't feel safe and your mind is projecting that fear into images.
Please reach out for help in real life too.
I am sending healing thoughts of safety and peace your way