I have recently made the decision that my life will mean something, and in choosing to live, I am also making the decision that instead of simply "surviving", I will seek to be healthy and do whatever it takes for me to get to that point.
However! I can't seem to get in to see a Psychiatrist as no one is accepting new patients within the next couple of weeks, most of them aren't accepting until September.
Am tired of "trying" everything but what works through my Primary care doc, plus as I stated, she is friends with my soon to be ex-wife.
My therapist that I was going to last year has moved to another office that doesn't take my insurance.
Wanting to be healthy, but really struggling with my patience level at the moment.
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to simply survive; and I need to feel better soon or I won't be able to stay so resolved and determined.

[lost_lonely]

You've made a good decision. I admire you so much, to be able to remain so strong and determined, even when things are at their worst.
I understand how fustrating the whole therapist thing can be. I currrently have no insurance and no more than a dime to my name, so I can't see someone, even know I know I probably should be.
Whatever you do, try to keep your positive attitude up. It's very important, especially when we're trying to fight off our darkest and most dangerous demons. You need to win that fight. I believe I'm losing, dying slowly as each day passes.
But I need to tell you that your hope gives me a little bit of hope, that maybe tomrrow will be better than today.
Stay strong, patient and I'm sure everything will work out for you, Jon.

((((hugs)))))))))

You sweet thing (((((((((((((LOST_LONELY)))))))))))))
thank you so much! You made a statement, "I believe I'm losing, dying slowly as each day passes" that I totally understand. Even as I try to remain positive I feel the same way as you stated. This is NOT how I want to live, and I believe in "Free Will" I believe that I ultimately can choose how my life will continue from here on out. I can't choose the battles that I will face, but I can choose how I respond to those battles.
You've heard the term "fake it 'til you make it"; I guess that's what's going on with me at the moment. As soon as 10 minutes ago the thought crossed my mind that it's not worth the fight; but I WILL NOT GIVE UP!
You can do this too, I wasn't given a special dose of strength by God; if I can do this, you can too.
Blessings, and hope for tomorrow.
Jon

[troubled1]

Stay Strong Jon....... That is all I can say at this point wish I were more help..... Take Care Troubled1
(((((((((((((JON)))))))))))))))))

Thank you.
Jon

[(JD)]

Good for you Jon! You CAN stay strong over a long period of time! Yes, there might be brief periods of time that you are not as strong, but over the long haul, you can. <font color=purple>

Thousands of ppl have gone through, and are going through what you are... criminy millions of Americans have insurance problems. I don't mean to belittle your situation, but some ppl feel better just knowing they are the first, or only...

IMHO you need to find a different doctor. A man finding a new primary care doctor is a bit easier than a woman trying to find a suitable one...so I'm pretty sure you can do that. AND that pcdoc can begin any meds you and he/she decide you might need. You don't have to wait for a psychiatrist to begin meds.

Well, with that said, if your new doc prescribes the meds, then you won't even need a psychiatrist, because they don't DO counseling anymore anyway. Find a clinical psychologist or therapist to talk with.

And if you change none of the above, then at least go ahead and make the appt for the future shrink... you can always cancel if things change before then.

Just thinkin...

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>

Thanks for your suggestions; I appreciate it.
Jon

[lost_lonely]

Thanks. I think I may be able to win this battle, if I finally find the strength inside. I have some support from the outside now, so that does help a lot. And of course all the support I receive here, on this site, is a gigantic help, as well. Thanks again for all the encouragement and support. It means a lot to me.

I'm so glad that you have some support; and you DO have the strength inside; it's just waiting for you to call on it.
You have so much in store for you; enjoy the journey.
Jon

[collegefriend]

JON- im so glad that you have made such a great desicion. Im so proud of you! i hope everything goes well for you.

<font color=blue>thanks for the emails youve sent! i really appreciate them!! hope to hear from you soon</font color=blue>

andrea

<font color=red> It's hard being a snowflake in a world of Cheerios!</font color=red>

Thank you so much! That means the world to me.
(((((COLLEGE_FRIEND)))))

Jon

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[JEWEL909]

Hi I am new here and stumbling through it. Not real sure what I can say and what I cant and sure dont want to trigger anyone but I am in a major funk. Feel close to the end. Dont know exactly WHAT triggered it for me this time but just dont feel I can go through it all again. Do not have therapist at this time either, nor insurance, living in a newer place and left an excellent UNDERSTANDING therapist behind. Do not have a single soul to talk to and so far am running low on options even online. Dont even know if I will ever find my way back HERE. not even sure it matters anymore. Just wis there was ONE person in this town that I live in that I could talk to face to face. Just feel like there isnt a single one and dont even know where to look. Its simple to say look in phone book or call a hot line, but it dont work that way for me. I do not TRUST that easy. My MD here did not even know what PTSD was! Let alone know how to help. And right now, I dont feel I have the time left to keep searching for someone who does.

I feel blessed that you chose as your first post to reply to one of mine. I'm kind of what some would call a "drifter"; I move from town to town with the company I work for--I live in motels presently, with no PCP or Therapist. It's difficult at times to do it alone as I am certain that I have bipolar in addition with PTSD. I am anticipating the day when I can settle (very soon) and get started on some much needed meds.
Anyway, hang in there, and stay in touch.
Jon

[alm15]

Hi Jon! I'm glad you're focussing on getting better. One thought I had was maybe keeping a journal might help. That way you can keep the negative thoughts out of your head and onto the paper. My T also tells me all the time that we know the best way to help ourselves. If I ask myself during difficult times what I need, if I'm quiet, the answer comes. I know it can be horrible to wait for help. I was needing meds and feeling suicidal at one point in my life and when I told the clerks at the doctor's office, they just kept saying, I'm sorry, it will be 6 weeks at least. I didn't know at that point I could go to the ER and they didn't bother to tell me that. She asked me if I wanted an appointment and I said, "No! I might be dead by then!" I have manic depression too and I was in the thick of it then. It sounds like you're able to think pretty clearly right now, which is great. I hope you get to see a doc soon. Untreated Bi-Polar can be nasty. All my best to you. Take great care of yourself! Annie