[Bookworm257]

I decided to trigger myself today.

For months I have been avoiding any and all things that remind me of what happened. Certain song comes on? Mute it immediately. Shirt I was wearing that day pops up in my closet? Hide it away and forget the image of it. Someone on TV talks about something related to the incident? Turn it off.

But today I decided to face my triggers. I know if I keep avoiding them and stuffing my feelings down and away I will never get past my trauma and my inner emotions will kee building up.

I ldecided to isten to the music that was playing that day. My trauma was about a $u!c!de @tt3mpt so that day I was listening to reeeeaally sad music and thinking about how and why I was going to do it.

I cried. A lot. And it was really usetting. But I've calmed down now and I honestly feel good that I was able to get those emotions out. It's like a urge, a refresh. It was upsetting, but if I don't get over my triggers they will always haunt me.

[SPR67]

I still avoid things that bring back memories. Was there something particular that gave you the strength to face your feelings, or did you decide on your own that it was time?

[Fuzzybear]

I was wondering the same thing as the poster above.
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