Justice from abuser PTSD from abuser

I just found out my abuser admitted to it… this is a relief because I thought once the detectives asked me if I was comfortable with calling him and faking restarting our relationship and I said no because I wasn’t comfortable I thought it would end there because once they would go to his house he would deny everything. I was informed that detectives are very good at interrogating and he ended up admitting to it. This is A HUGE relief. I thought our justice system was trash, mind you I was 16-17 in 5 almost 6 month “relationship” with a 31 year old abusive man. Now I just turned 18 early June and I thought all hope was lost to get justice. At the end of July it’ll mark the day I left him, he abused me sexually emotionally and even at times physically. My ptsd has now given me nightmares and I smoked weed with him a lot, now I quit 8 months ago due to psychosis because of cannabis induced psychosis that the PTSD heightened. I just smelled cannabis that I used to love the smell of and now I hate the smell, it also gave me flashbacks and a headache. Now I’m learning that weed isn’t as harmless as I thought and I’m so grateful to have survived my psychosis episode, no medication needed I just needed to stop smoking. Now I can testify against him, I’m going to ask if it has to be in the same room as him because that’ll make me very uncomfortable. Hopefully I don’t have to testify in the same room but if I do have to I’ll still do it because I choose justice since Im blessed to have the possibility to have it. Anyway thank you for
hearing my rant.

So sorry that you've been through all that you have with this abusive man. Wishing you the best on your healing journey.

Do you have a lawyer who can prep you before testifying? Are there other people who have suffered from his abuse who will also be testifying?

My lawyers going to get in contact with me soon, I think I’m the first I don’t think others will be testifying. I thought I deleted most of the proof of our situation but I recently found a lot of voice mails from him in the deleted folder. Even a 3 minute long one where I had finally escaped and he was harassing me to come back. I haven’t listened to them to not trigger myself but I’ll bring that up to the lawyer to see if it can be evidence. Thank you

It's good to hear you have a legal team helping you.

Yes, best not to listen to the message now, but pass it on to the lawyers.

Take extra good care of yourself: you're worth it!!