[trisha572]

I have been emotionally numb for over a year now. I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ptsd, and recently bipolar, though I don't know the latest one is correct.

I tend to block things out, such as people and memories of my past. I haven't been able to laugh or cry, but today I totally lost it and cried in front of a total stranger! Crazy as it sounds, it felt great! She was very understanding, but I kept apologizing anyway, explaining I was under a great deal of stress.

After over a year away from counseling, I recently returned a few months ago, and I am going weekly. I really think it is helping somewhat to find my buried emotions. The main reason for my post is for those of you who feel they aren't getting anywhere in therapy. Please don't give up. When I gave up for that year, I spiraled downward into a place I never want to be again. I have also been trying to research a lot on my own through books and the internet. I know it will get worse before it gets better and that scares me, but just believing I WILL be better again, gives me hope.

[Capp]

Originally Posted by trisha572

I have been emotionally numb for over a year now. I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ptsd, and recently bipolar, though I don't know the latest one is correct.

I tend to block things out, such as people and memories of my past. I haven't been able to laugh or cry, but today I totally lost it and cried in front of a total stranger! Crazy as it sounds, it felt great! She was very understanding, but I kept apologizing anyway, explaining I was under a great deal of stress.

After over a year away from counseling, I recently returned a few months ago, and I am going weekly. I really think it is helping somewhat to find my buried emotions. The main reason for my post is for those of you who feel they aren't getting anywhere in therapy. Please don't give up. When I gave up for that year, I spiraled downward into a place I never want to be again. I have also been trying to research a lot on my own through books and the internet. I know it will get worse before it gets better and that scares me, but just believing I WILL be better again, gives me hope.

Trisha,
Thank you for sharing...
It is encouragement to many of us to keep moving forward.

Peace,
Cap

[(JD)]

((((Trisha)))

Yes, things will become manageable and PTSD won't always run your life. It takes hard work on a long path, but it sounds like you are on that correct path!

[ClinicallyClueless]

I agree with Sky. At least today at this very moment!! I'm really happy for you that you were able to cry. It is a great step forward. After 17 years of therapy, that is one of the most difficult things for me to do. Hooray for you

[madisgram]

oh trisha, i'm so happy for you!! you're doing so many things to help yourself get better. sounds like you have a realistic picture of the process too. keep us posted, will u? therapy saved my life..literally, along with my meds. it is a wonderful journey of self discovery!

[phoenix7]

Hi trisha572 and Wlecome,

I am glad you had the release of crying even if it was with a stranger, maybe thats better actually, because a friend probably would have said something that may have made you stop crying and you probably needed that release, ... I'm glad you're back in therapy and I hope it works out for you - take care P7

[ThePainNeverDies]

((((((((((Trisha))))))))))

Thank you so much for sharing this!

I have been in therapy for quite a while now, and I still find it difficult to cry in front of people.

I'm so glad you had that release though! It gives me hope

[turquoisesea]

congratulations, and thanks for the encouragement