Overall at 63. Self-esteem at 92!

Hi,
Just done the Sanity Score and came out with an OK 63. Unfortunately, in self-esteem I'm a 92! If that wasn't chronically low, then I'd be sane

I've been fortunate in that I've managed to keep the same job since I left Uni. If it wasn't for my job keeping me on the straight and narrow, I'd dread to think we're I'd be. I am shy, have low self-esteem and, at 40 have never been in an adult relationship. Yup, I'm middle aged and have never even got to the Dug-out, let alone first base!

Being in a situation like that can really screw your head up. Essentially I'm a hermit and can't think of any way out of it. The advice you get goes along the line of "find a club or interest". Unfortunately, I really do find socialising difficult (last time I went to a pub or out with friends/colleagues was probably over 4 years ago and that was a work Christmas Do). I used to roleplay with a few workmates once a week, but that stopped when one of them moved country. I've considered a local gaming club but that has the problem of meeting new people and probably being full of school kids. No other clubs really spark an interest.

I find myself going round in circles. Half of me wants to meet people and the other half can't.