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im already seeking help but it feels asthough theyre not really interested. i want to talk to someone about all this stuff im dealing with but it feels like theyre determined to shrug me off as, essentially 'troubled because of troubled life' without giving me the real opportunity to sit down with someone and discuss exactly what im dealing with. i mean how can they assess my problem if i dont get the chance to really tell them what it is? its beyond me, but as the client i feel powerless to say anything as i dont wanna sound ungrateful, bossy or like im tellnig them how to do their job. but furthermore i feel asthough the importance or attention allocated to me is greatly reduced due to their pre emptive 'hes not that bad' decision. my life has been a monumental mess for so long and its now getting too much for me, i cant take it much longer. i just want the help, but when the help is essentially non existent even at the source, i dont know where to go, what to do.