[Got Java]

I starting again with lowering my dosage of my current ant-depressant and mood stabilizer to go on another type of medication for issues I am having.

Its my 1st day on my new meds and i am definitly feeling the effects of them working. I am so sleepy, slow, and in a dream life state and its. ok for now.Still having a rough time try to get my spouce on board to realize I have a mental illness and I am able to take care of my son.

She feels I would harm or neglect my son when I am watching him bymyself.I dont think that is the issue.She hears these horrable stories of children being abused and thrown across the room with parents that have issues with taking care of the kids.I dont think I could ever do that to anyone that I love and care about as much as I do my beautiful baby boy.My little guy means everything to me and then some.

I would never do any harm to him ever.I would rather inflict harm on myself before laying a hand on him.He means the world to me and I am happy to have him in my life.I cant get her to reason that I not addicted to my meds because I am a previous drug addict.I just need something to keep my moods in check and my depression undercontroll.I didnt want to take medication because I know how she felt about it in the 1st place, but I really didnt know what else to do and I was suffering so much with my state of mind at the time it was too much to bare.

I want things to get better before they get any worse than they are its a battle between my illness and between the wife I love and care about.Its tearing me apart knowing this is how things have turned out at the point in my screwed up life.

[Cocosurviving]

Hi,
Congrats on being proactive in your road to mental stability. Not sure if ur wife wld b open to attending a support group. Groups are available to help family members and spouses understand MI. There are groups available for ppl w/ MI's too (www.nami.org).

[sewerrats]

Getting you wife on board is not easy ,they are scared for the future there man has problems and to them you are the one they need for comfort and love. My wife didnt want me on ad,s has i had always been strong and loveing ,and she thought i would be a veg . I would have been if not for the meds ,did you have this problem before the baby, has life style changes bring on illness at times then go away in time.

[Got Java]

Originally Posted by sewerrats

Getting you wife on board is not easy ,they are scared for the future there man has problems and to them you are the one they need for comfort and love. My wife didn't want me on ad,s has i had always been strong and loving ,and she thought i would be a veg . I would have been if not for the meds ,did you have this problem before the baby, has life style changes bring on illness at times then go away in time.

Still trying to reach out and convince my wife that the medication is keeping me at peace with my inner demons I constantly battle everyday.Its hard for her to understand because she does not know how it is having a mental illness.

I tell her all of the time I want it to go away and go back to being the same guy she feel in love with a long time ago and had a beautiful bb boy with.I constantly have to live with the fact I messed up my life and marriage loosing my marbles after my son was being born.I didn't expect myself to snap like a twig and meed professional support and medication to function afterwards.It was the last thing I ever thought would happen.

I tears me up how far apart this problem has made us so not like being with eachother. I want it to get better someday so I can enjoy the love and compassion we once had between each other and especially with the little guy around.

[kaliope]

why dont you have your wife attend an appt with your pdoc so he/she can explain your mental illness and meds to her. that you cannot develp an addiction to your meds and that you are unlikely to snap and abuse your child with the mental illness that you have. hearing it from a professional is more likely to have impact than hearing it from you.

[Got Java]

Originally Posted by kaliope

why dont you have your wife attend an appt with your pdoc so he/she can explain your mental illness and meds to her. that you cannot develp an addiction to your meds and that you are unlikely to snap and abuse your child with the mental illness that you have. hearing it from a professional is more likely to have impact than hearing it from you.

I have an appointment next week with my T and she decided she will attend my session with me.hopefully she will not decide at the last minute to not attend and make us not try to resolve these issues that we are having between us. I just hope I can get some sort of understanding or some resolution out of it. It might take a couple of sessions but its a start I hope.

[sewerrats]

Your son being born is the key to this, once ther was 2 now there are three , its life changeing not only for the woman you no ,but for the man also, you havent got your wife to yourself she shares you with your son , its no big deal we guys feel pushed out and we get post natal depression to our lives change over night. Your not mad just scared of the change, embrace it dont fear it he is you son she is your wife give them the love they need you are scareing yourself and your wife with this change to you life. Every body gets it. dig in an to embrace you hole family.