[Gadgetsmile]

I was put on citalopram 20mg not Thursday gone but the previous one, because I was having really negative thoughts and suicidal thoughts. By Saturday morning I was happy and hyper as anything
I mean I was up at 4 am doing housework and when my dad came up to see us I was using my 4 year old as a free weight! When I saw the mental health nurse on Thursday she was a little shocked to see me bound in all hyper. I mean she knows I can go up and down and mentioned a possible mood disorder before but she was asking some random questions, like was I on drugs other than the meds, was I taking stimulants, was I drinking. I told her I don't do drugs, I have a 4 year old, I have smoked canibis in the past but I wouldnt take anything else. Even though I am 26 I look about 15 so no one in their right mind would sell me alcohol. I only drink red bull or take pro plus when I'm tired and I haven't been tired.
She said she would have to monitor my mood, well, I feel like I am on my way back down. For the first time in a week I am feeling tired, and not at all hyper.
I have felt like this before and it is never good, I hate being down, it's no fun for my daughter either.
I hate being like this...

[Eliza Jane]

Scary! Did the MH nurse change your meds further? If not, demand that she does! Sounds like you need a mood stabilizer and not an anti-depressant. That is not a typical response for someone with unipolar (regular) depression, but it is something that often happens to people with bipolar when they are given antidepressants.

Good luck,
EJ

[Gadgetsmile]

Thanks for your reply,

No she didn't change my meds, she wants to see how it goes and monitor my moods. But the next time I see her isn't for like 11 days. At the moment it feels like anything can happen in that time. She also said I shouldn't stop taking them without talking to her first.
I dont know what to do...

Thanks again for your reply

[Eliza Jane]

11 days is a long time. Call sooner. Trust yourself if you feel afraid and unsafe.

Is it possible to see a psychiatrist instead of a nurse? This nurse does not seem very concerned about symptoms that should really concern her.

Be safe,
EJ

[Gadgetsmile]

Thanks for your reply again...

11 days does seem like a long time. I don't want to call her because I had a kind of mini melt down the week she put me on the citalopram. I wasn't supposed to see her until the following week. I don't want to keep bugging her. I have to go to the GP as I will run out of the meds by Wednesday. Maybe I'll ask them for advice?
I have to see the MHN for a while and then see the MH doc once she's done her assessment and feels like she has a preliminary digagnosis.
I think she was concerned. That is what bothers me. She looked concerned, but then decided to leave it for 2 weeks before seeing me again. Although she knows I will have to go to the GP in the meantime.
It's the not knowing that is getting me. I mean she says I almost definitely have PTSD, but there is a possibility of a mood disorder. Possibility? Well I'm starting to think definitely after the last month or so. It's not the first time, but I had already had my fill of hyper a few weeks ago, but it wasn't quite as bad. It's the crashing I can't stand. I suppose I just have to put up with it until she has seen me enough to pass me on to the doc. I don't think I will be unsafe. Even when I feel really down it never goes too deep as I have a little one and I have to keep going for her. The MHN said she was my huge protective factor.

Sorry to go on...
Thanks for your replies

[ECHOES]

Most often, these initial reactions/side effects do calm down or disappear. I agree that giving it more time is a good idea. You know now how the medication affects you and what to expect at this time, so you can plan accordingly and can understand and tell yourself that what is happening is simply a temporary medication side effect and that you will be fine.

[Gadgetsmile]

Thanks for your reply echoes

Hopefully you are right and this will go and not come back.

But since she said there was a possibility of a mood disorder and I have had this before but not quite so intense I'm not entirely sure this will be the last time.

I'll just have to wait and see.

Thanks again for your reply