[ThisWayOut]

I know most are on meds here, and they work for you, but they do not work for me. I was recently inpatient and they put me on a low dose of Celexa... I went along with it because I wanted to be able to be discharged when I felt ready and not be labeled as "resisting treatment." I told them of all the side-effects I was getting from them. but they told me to deal with it and they should go away after a few days... I was discharged Friday and have not taken any meds since Thursday night... and it sucks. But I refuse to go back on them... they always just make me worse... (this time they gave me a mild stroke and possibly a mild heart attack while inpatient)
Anyway, I just needed to vent... the tachycardia sucks, and the shaking sucks and the rebound depression sucks and the weakness sucks... I just hope it's all over soon. :/ ugh.

[sewerrats]

Originally Posted by MdngtRain

I know most are on meds here, and they work for you, but they do not work for me. I was recently inpatient and they put me on a low dose of Celexa... I went along with it because I wanted to be able to be discharged when I felt ready and not be labeled as "resisting treatment." I told them of all the side-effects I was getting from them. but they told me to deal with it and they should go away after a few days... I was discharged Friday and have not taken any meds since Thursday night... and it sucks. But I refuse to go back on them... they always just make me worse... (this time they gave me a mild stroke and possibly a mild heart attack while inpatient)
Anyway, I just needed to vent... the tachycardia sucks, and the shaking sucks and the rebound depression sucks and the weakness sucks... I just hope it's all over soon. :/ ugh.

What are you going to do now you have binned the med????you carnt go back in hospital whats the point, whats the plan now.

[venusss]

Icarus Project has guide for coming off safely and it addresses many concerns.

Also, this may be helpful.
Psychiatric drug withdrawal 101 – Beyond Meds

I suggest working on your coping mechanisms and creating some safety net for yourself.

Are you open to the alternative treatments? WHat's your coping mechanisms? Do you have somebody to guide you through bad times?

[ThisWayOut]

Thanks both. I have a long list of coping skills, and I am looking into a trauma program for myself. I had been on meds 2 years ago, but they only made me more suicidal and self-harming. I have a therapist, but I don't see him until Tuesday.
I have been using art, music and my animals to help me through this, as well as talking to my family for support. I was only in the hospital to get me over the hump of the self-harm urges that had come to a head. I hadn't self-harmed in 2 years until last week... but I wasn't able to bring myself to tell my wife, so I opted to go to the ER and get checked in for a few days. The self-harm is a HUGE issue for my wife and I, so I did not want to have to admit to it... We will be going to marriage counseling, so it will be addressed there - in a safe place for both of us.
Venus Halley, thanks for that link. I will check it out. I had only been on the celexa for 3 days; I never expected the withdrawals to be this bad... I had been on it years ago, but then they just switched me to another med at the time so I had no obvious symptoms from stopping... I knew Cymbalta had bad withdrawals, but never expected that from the celexa after such a short time. (though I felt the effects only a few hours after taking my first dose, I didn't think it would mess with me so badly coming off)...
Thanks again both.

[ThisWayOut]

update (more for myself than anyone else, just trying to keep notes somewhere)
I took vistaril last night to sleep because I was so wired still at 2am... 75mg and I'm still feeling the effects of it at 9:30pm the following evening. My brain is just mush. I'm having trouble functioning and paying attention to anything. I even took a nap during the day because I just could not stay awake for the life of me... filled with crazy dreams... my head feels like wet cement. ugh.
also, I have developed a fear of sleeping at night... not fear exactly, just anxiety around it... I think that is why I was up so late last night... I feel the same again tonight. I will have to try to explore what and why it is. This is new since the hospital. I can't attribute the fear/anxiety to anything in particular (like nightmares or anything), but just a general unease about going to bed at night. Really not sure where it came from... I can nap easily during the day, but there's something about going to bed at night that has me anxious. weird.