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I;ve been taking Mirtazipine for 2 yrs now...couldn't really tell if it was beneficial or not as my life was pretty well messed up at this point...

I've been in therapy for just over 2 yrs now...finally begining to see the light at the end of a very dark tunnel and risked cutting my meds by half...

That was 2wks ago...I've found in those 2 wks that I have a more sharper sense of emotions...when the darker emotions set in I found myself also experiencing a realness about them that wasn't as bad as the drug induced blandness...if that makes sense...

My mind seems sharper...but my sleep has gone haywire...which is off slight concern to me..I;'ve also found myself tearful at times...but this hasn't nesscarily been a bad thing...

Then this last night I took my old dosage again...maybe unconsiously I'm still unsure if how I am with half the dosage is "safe"?...but immediately the flatness of emotion set in...I could tell the difference...the rawness was taken away...but the rawness is somehow more alive.....

I wondered if anyone else has an experience like this?...I think I will carry on again with the half dosage and see how it goes....also I feel being so numbed out just instills the message that "I am needing this pills"...makes me feel pretty helpless...unable to get in their mentally and pick myself up...with the rawness It felt more empowering...maybe this is all mind trick I am playing on myself..?

Hey mouse,

I had a friend who was on risperdol or seroquel, which did the same thing to him (and me, actually. I was on risperdol for about 6 weeks which turned me into a zombie. I didn't like that feeling of not feeling so I stopped the meds).

As his doctor reduced the dosage, he began to feel and show, more and more emotion. He felt this was a healthy step for him, because he was ready to deal with life more. There was one occasion that he had to return to his higher dose, but he was dealing with alot of issues that happened upon him suddenly. Eventually, it was reduced again. Then again, some six months later.

He is much more responsive, and able to show more emotion. It has also given him back alot of lost energy and his weight reduced dramatically.

I don't know if these meds are similar, but it sounds as though they have the same effect - that "drug-induced blandness" you described. He, too, felt more empowered as you noted with yourself.

I think it is a good thing! (just call me Martha...) You are feeling emotions more acutely because of the reduction of your meds. Knowing this will help you get used to "feeling more." You may think that your emotions are over the top, but I doubt it. It is probably at "normal" levels - it was for my friend, though he sometimes didn't think so (it just took a little reassuring from his friends, at times).

He is much more active now and has been able to return to work part-time. It is a night and day difference that I see in him. He sees and "feels' the same.

Hang in there. Let it happen. If you are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, it may be time to do exactly what you are doing.



AS

Thanks AS, thats exactly how it is for me...:..