[Ad Intra]

I have been having more suicidal thoughts but I'm not how how I feel emotionally. I'm sure if I should call my doctor or not.

[ChangingMyMind]

I would call as soon as I had changes in thought that made me feel that way. Be safe, let your doc know. I am assuming the meds are making you feel this way?

[Ad Intra]

I'm not sure if it's the meds or situational so it's a hard call. I was considering wanting until January (when I see her again) to say something.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Hmm well January is over a month away. It wouldn't hurt just to have a phone chat.

[Vossie42]

Here are a few things to consider:

Do you normally get increasingly suicidal in the winter months? If so, you could be feeling the effects of the changing of the seasons on your mood. The days are shorter, and we don't usually get outside as much. Or you could be feeling the pressure of the holiday season.

Are you feeling more suicidal now than you did at the same time a year ago? Has anything happened recently to add to your stress? Don't discount the cumulative effect of small stuff. Anything in your daily life or in therapy that maybe triggered something?

Do you have a plan to commit suicide? Do you have the means to commit suicide? Having a plan does not mean you'll go through with it. Getting the supplies and working out the logistics of how to successfully commit suicide is a definite reason for calling your doctor and getting an appointment ASAP.

If you're somewhere in between and therapy isn't helping much or you don't have access to therapy right now, I advise you to call you doctor and get an appointment in December. The sooner, the better. Perhaps she can augment your medication therapy (add something new or increase something you're already on) for a few months until you get through the holiday season/winter.

I would call now so that you can get in before the end of the year. There's no point in letting something get really bad before addressing it. JMHO.

PS - If you're feeling like you may be suffering from SAD and can't get yourself to spend a lot of time outside, buy a super bright light and sit by it for about 15 minutes a day. It doesn't matter what kind of light it is. It doesn't matter what part of the spectrum the light is -- warm, cool, daylight, etc. It just has to be super-duper bright. I think you can get something called a Happy Light for $45 at Walgreens. It puts out 5,000 lux (a measure of brightness). More expensive lights put out 10,000 lux. I think 10,000 lux is standard for SAD therapy, however people can benefit from the 5,000 lux ones also.

[Ad Intra]

Thank you for this. It made me think about what's going on.
I wasn't suicidal this time last year. As matter of fact I wasn't suicidal from May 2010 to February of 2014. I was suicidal for a few months in the earlier part of this year, and it went away and came back in November.
Stressors:
-Too much homework and not enough time to do it
-Therapist quit
-I've been single for a while now and I keep going after guys that don't care about me. The only guy who showed me attention was sexual harassing me and only wanted sex
-My best friend and I are seniors in college and we're doing our internship in the spring. She's doing to do her an hour away and I won't see her as much soon
-I want to do research but I know my topic will cause trouble and a stink
-My coworkers treat me like I'm an idiot and one of them is bullying me

[Vossie42]

[quote=Ad Intra;4117214]Stressors:
-Too much homework and not enough time to do it <<

I know the feeling! I'm in school, too, and my stress level and anxiety definitely ramps up near the end of the term. Bleah!

"-I've been single for a while now and I keep going after guys that don't care about me."

Forget the dating thing for now. You're in school, working and are probably too busy to really bother with guys anyway.

"-My best friend and I are seniors in college and we're doing our internship in the spring. She's doing to do her an hour away and I won't see her as much soon"

Skype! Google Hangout!

Hang in there! The term is almost over. I've found the counseling center at the schools I've attended to be very good. If nothing else, they're free.