[evildouble102]

I'm going nuts right now. I'm having such a hard time right now. I feel like crying and I can't even explain it all right now... can't sit still right now. But it's late and so I can't really do anything outside; I mean it's pretty safe but being a young female living on my own I tend to stay in at the night. Feeling incredibly pissed off; there's no doubt in my mind if anyone were here, we would NOT get along. This is ridiculous cause I'm such an easygoing, go with the flow type person. I don't know what to do... anyone have a suggestion? I see my doc I think next week. In the meantime things aren't fun. I'm laughing and crying.... Nothing new really except I was put on birth control a couple of weeks ago: ortho novum and finished all the active pills.... I am so unbearable right now. I wanna smash everything just destroy anything. I feel like such an awful person cause my cat's being great and trying to be loveable and I can't stand it right now, eventhough I love her to death. This is particularly troubling. O and my seroquel was upped to just 200 mg for sleep at bedtime. Gotta go feeling so damn jittery.... anyway if I didn't ask enoguh, Ill try it later

[asylumgardens]

Well, birth control messes with your hormones. If you noticed this change came right after you started it, maybe you need to talk to your doctor about that and try a different pill or different dosage. I know that doesn't help right now, but you should definitely bring it up. I guess just do something to calm and relax yourself. Read, make tea, take a bubble bath.. whatever you like that could relax you.