[OliverB]

I didn't think on suicide since august, and was that way, until I reached 50-75mg of lamotrigine that I set a date to kill myself while I am thinking on doing some new courses on May and began a proyect with breeding guinea pigs. I don't really want to kill myself but I have that suicidal thing there.

Yesterday lamotrigine was increase to 100mg and gabapentine I also take to 300mg four times a day. The thing is after the fourth pill I became extremelly impulsively suicidal, I would have taken an OD of all my pills, psych and non psych, if I haven't had my psychopharmacology and human pharmacology books which I could see they wouldn't kill me.

Now I am leaving a note to my pdoc and talking with my nurse to make her know.

If something in this post it's against the forum rules, please, don't remove it, just edit the wrong parts.

Thank you.

[Yoda]

You need to call your pdoc asap. If you feel you are unsafe to control these thoughts and are in danger of acting on them you need to go to an emergency department right now.

I've felt suicidal too and it is not a good feeling. I hope you feel better soon.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Yoda

You need to call your pdoc asap. If you feel you are unsafe to control these thoughts and are in danger of acting on them you need to go to an emergency department right now.

I've felt suicidal too and it is not a good feeling. I hope you feel better soon.

I am not suicidal right now, it was caused by the increase of gabapentin. Now I am returning to the past dosage.

I won't go to the ER even if suicidal, they are unhelpful here.

[Yoda]

Okay if you are safe then just call your pdoc. So perhaps you said and I missed it but how long have you been on the gabapentin and when did the increases start? I take gapapentin myself but only 400 mg qhs.

By the way if I understand correctly it is ago to post on PC that we are feeling suicidal or unsafe but we just can say I am going to do it this way at this time. That doesn't leave any way for people to be supportive if suicide is a done deal. Plus I'd be really upset if someone posted that and they stopped posting and I wouldn't know what happened.

Sharing thoughts, even scary thoughts, and asking for support is different.

I am not a moderator but that is how I understand it.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Yoda

Okay if you are safe then just call your pdoc. So perhaps you said and I missed it but how long have you been on the gabapentin and when did the increases start? I take gapapentin myself but only 400 mg qhs.

I have been on gabapentin since a week, 300mg three times a day. Yesterday it was increased to four times a day, and after taking the last one at night... I suddenly I became extremely suicidal, to the point if I haven't had my pharmacology book to check that wouldn't kill me I would have overdosed.

Now I am taking it 3 times a day again.

[still_crazy]

anti-epileptics can cause or worsen depression. sometimes they cause mood instability and/or psychosis and/or suicidal behavior. Welcome to psychiatry. Sometimes the treatment is worse than the condition itself.

Sorry about this. I think all psychiatric drugs have the potential to cause these sorts of problems. The major tranquilizers are used to calm people down when they're actively suicidal and such, but with akathisia and drug induced dysphoria and such, some of them can sometimes make some people/patients worse off, too.

Have you considered a strictly as-needed (PRN) major tranquilizer?

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by still_crazy

Have you considered a strictly as-needed (PRN) major tranquilizer?

I have take al atypical antipsychotics except clozaril and all of them makes me worse except amisulpride, which doesn't act to my as a traquilizer but 'activates' me in a good sense... until lack of emotions begins.

[mugwort2]

I think that if you become in any way suicidal , no matter how mild, you should contact either your main physical doctor or your pdoc asap. I never took Gapapentine so I can't tell from personal experience. Vaguely remember being prescribed Lamotrogine but not much of what it was like. Is Gabapentine related to Gamma Amino Butyric acid. GABA A calming neurotransmitter?

[joshuas-mommy]

I was taking gabapentin as a mood stabilizer and found that it was very good. I didn't have any side effects. Maybe it is one of your other meds?