Trazodone Anxiety

I told my psychiatrist that I was having trouble sleeping and sometimes melatonin doesn't work so she prescribed me 50mg trazodone nightly. She said we could also see if it could help as an antidepressant because I had a bad reaction to lexapro.

Honestly I have so much anxiety about sleeping now. At first it knocked me out but now I can't sleep without it (which screwed me over when my psychiatrist forgot to put in the refill). I also can't tell if I'm experiencing chest pains or just convincing myself that I am. I get really severe medicine anxiety. Sleep is now a time of great anxiety for me. I almost always fall asleep but I toss and turn and wake up in the middle of the night and have such freaking strange dreams. I'll wake up but still believe I'm dreaming and stay in a weird conscious state but still believe I have to abide by the dream's rules or that my dream is also reality.

For example, last night I tried to sleep at someone else's house. I took the traz at my usual time and I could not fall asleep because of the anxiety of being in a new place as well as the medicine anxiety. I hardly slept but I recall believing in the middle of the night that a fictional character from a video game I like and the cat at that house were in a murder plot to kill me. I accepted that there was nothing I could do to stop it, so I should just continue laying awake until they kill me.


I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist at our next visit about getting me off of it. I don't look forward to losing even more sleep by weening off of it. These adverse reactions to meds is psyching me out. I don't even suffer from insomnia, I never needed trazodone. It'll be over soon because my appointment is next week but, seriously, what a nightmare this has been.