[Blan]

I want to know stories of people who recovered somehow.

Since I started medication, my perception of reality changed and I wasn't the same anymore + dissociation + amotivation + numbness.. It's been 5 years of medication.

Today, when I woke up, I remembered clearly how my life was, how living was like and how living my life was like. Then, separately, I remembered how being me was like.

On top of "fearing" not recovering from the side effecfs, I don't know if I can get all those things back even if the side effects go away since a lot of things have happened since then. A lot of bad stuff. On top of having lost it all. And those things happened because I lost it in the first place.

How did you recover? Are you still slowly recovering?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm on a different medication mix. I'm not as motivated but I got a glimpse of what life use to be like when my meds/situation was wrong a couple of weeks ago. It took a while to get back to my stable. I will forever be in recovery. I will probably never hold a job. I don't feel as intense but I still do feel. I'm a much quieter version of myself. I'm much calmer It sounds like you really need to talk to your treatment team because that would be intolerable to me. It's about quality of life and it doesn't sound like your quality of life is where you want it.

Recovery to me is being stable enough that therapy and med management is enough for me. If your dr wont budge go to your therapist and explain your issues with your medications and see what suggestions they have.

[bpforever1]

I don't know if I qualify as someone who has recovered, but I am working and am independent. I suffer from past psychosis. I usually am psychotic off my medication. Now, I am compliant. I think the key to stability is compliance. Everything else fell into place after I became compliant. I am high-functioning and am doing well. I have had about 10 psychotic episodes overall mainly from being non-compliant. I make sure I take my medication daily now no matter what happens.

I work as an online teacher and am planning to seek work as a translator/ writer. I am learning how to write technically. It is not easy. I was a science major but have not written a research paper in a long time. So, I have to work on it. I think working is doable once stability is achieved. I can't stress this enough.

I was homeless once and unable to pay for food. So, I have been down and out before. I was off my medication during this time, I urge you to find an effective medication to achieve mental stability. I did and take Abilify. I take a moderate dose and am doing well. I do suffer from minor side effects- all are tolerable.

Time will tell if you will be successful or not. I don't consider myself successful, but a survivor. I have survived the unendurable. I may be a winner to some but ultimately am a survivor.

My survival stems from my motivation to do my best to take care of myself and to be independent.

Best Wishes!

[MuddyBoots]

I've been on all three of those meds just not at the same time. I'm still on Invega. Fluoxetine made me manic, olanzapine made me feel just the way you're describing. I'm on a good mix now with vraylar, invega, and lithium as my main meds and really no significant side effects except some dizziness and restlessness and neither really bother me. Tell your doc how you feel and see what they have to say.