[185329]

I have a delusion about the medication Clozaril. I think that if I go on this drug, I will get my life back. And what I am basing this on is not only stories I have heard about other patients going on this drug; but the fact that on the official website of Clozaril, it has a picture of a torch at the top of the page and a tree at the bottom. I somehow misconstrued this to be somehow boding well for me if I go on this drug. Like I will actually get completely better or fully recovered if I go on Clozaril. Does this make any sense?

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Maybe that image and what you've heard make you feel hopeful? I know that I always knew that if everything else failed "there was always clozapine". And so when I went on it I dreaded it much less than other APs when I started them because I thought it might work and the others I didn't really believe in.

[WastingAsparagus]

Yeah, I kind of feel the same way about clozapine, honestly. I wish I could go on it.

[moon66]

You’ll have to get blood work at first. They use this medicine from what I know if nothing else works. It causes a lot of sedation with me and being able to wake up. And that’s my only downside to it. It keeps a lot of what is wrong with me away. I’m still searching for another medicine if there even is anything else. I tried loxapine and ended up in inpatient.

[185329]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I thought it might work and the others I didn't really believe in.

Same here. I feel like the only medication I believe in is Clozapine. I find myself dwelling on it often. I am currently on 30mg Olanzapine. I was on 40mg because I figured I know what's best for me and not my doctor. But then I reconsidered and brought my dose back down to 30mg. I was feeling light-headed anyway.