[Junerain]

I have been off and on topamax for a while and my thinking and faith and circumstances and changed sometimes i think it works sometimes i think it doesnt suddenly i had friend that was a really really close friend (i have no family) who advised, YOU ARE ON THE WRONG MEDICATION!! I knew it was true but couldnt think if in the last 2 years it had ever worked or not things were bad at times but things were good at times i had an emergency call in to the pharmacy change to depakote never had any problems when i was on that but why would topamax work for 2 years then suddenly stop? I feel a little healthier now but its only been a few hours and im inpatient. it feels like the world is going on without me and im mad i have no family to alert me sooner when i need a medication change why didnt anyone notice sooner no friend ever cared that much and my family doesnt seem to care i have been posting here i have expressed philosophical discontent but no one seemed to pick up it could be my meds. signed me, mentally ill but no one notices junerain

[Junerain]

I am feeling so much more blessed and better I feel the depakote is taking its effects and I am at work now, where I am blessed to help others with mental illness I am so blessed by this job it is so much more enjoyable than my last one. Yes, I am not close to my family and often say I do not have one as I have not started my own yet but what a blessing to have Ann Marie as my wonderful friend to love me so much she notices and cares! I see the cup half full.