[cafegrrrl]

Met shrink for first time today. Told him about how Effexor had my hyped up when it was prescribed last summer. Told him about other meds my doc put me on that i couldn't take or stand.

He was aware that my doc thought maybe i have bipolar. I told him the counselor said the same thing last week.

Shrink gave me samples of Lexapro today. 10 mg. Told me to take it once a day around dinner time. So i did. Now i'm all hyped up. I can't stand it. Totally on edge, can't think or am thinking too much or all over the place or something. My heart's racing and I feel like there's a buzzing sensation or feeling in my head. Of course, i can't sit still and just speeded up.

Called the shrink's office/counseling center. Got message stating they were closed and in case of emergency, to call some #. I researched the # and it's for the local Behavioral Health Commission.

I don't know if i should call that # because i don't know what they would say or do. I know that # is also a crisis line. And i don't really know if all this qualifies as an emergency.

And, for some reason, calling a pharmacy just doesn't seem right since the meds were samples the shrink had in his office.

Oh yeah. I wasn't thinking (obviously) and drank 1/2 a can of Vault, an "energy soda" so i know that's probably intensifying the whole thing.

Anyone know how long all this crap can last? I only took 10mg and i haven't taken any meds in about 11 days....

I just don't know if i can ride this out....